What Is Freedom Even Like?

2010-02-15T00:47:00.002+08:00

Some tips to relatives and parents when dealing with children from divorced families:
1. Never ever ask the child how his other parent is doing unless you are SINCERELY concerned.
2. Never suggest to the child to leave whoever he is currently living with and live with the other parent instead.
3. Never talk bad about his parents.
4. Never talk like you know what it's actually like, because you obviously don't, and trust me you won't like the feeling.
5. Never act like you are all-knowing when you are just a spoilt brat from a "complete" family.
6. There are limits to everything.
7. Even when the other parent is no longer in touch with you, it doesn't mean that he or she does not care about you. Don't assume that the other parent is an asshole just because he or she left your sister/brother/etc.
8. You look like a complete asshole when you bitch about the other parent, when the other parent's been asking and hoping that you are doing well.

Most people love CNY. I don't. I will willingly let go of all this red packets if it means I can actually pass these 2 to 3 days happily. I visit because I want to, not because I have to. I no longer believe in the lame adage of visiting your elderly, because 90% of the time it's fake and nonsensical. I grew up believing that family ties are important, but now I realize you have to be selective. Not every family member actually gives a shit about you, and similarly, you should not concern yourself with all of them, just those that you actually care about. Also, not everyone is blind. The fake smile and insincere gestures are irritating ;).

Why am I writing this? This CNY was actually quite good, managed to meet a long-lost relative who is really nice :). I think that's the best part of this CNY actually. No, I'm not particularly attached to her or anything, but I'm glad there's another person among my relatives who is actually genuinely nice. I tend to like genuine assholes more than fake "niceties", and I love genuinely nice people the most :). However, good things don't last, they almost never do. My mother has always been nice about me visiting my father's side. In fact, she's the one who reminds me to like 80% of the time. She's always asking how's my relatives are doing, especially my grandma. Sadly, some people on my paternal side seem to think that my mother's not a good person, for whatever reason. You know what, I can't make you like my mother, but please respect me and my sister. Don't talk shit about my mother to us, it's the lamest thing possible. Don't even try to hint. That only makes you look bad, and makes me lose a lot of respect for you. If I already dislike you it's not so bad. It hurts like hell when it's someone I respect and idolize.

We are old enough to judge for ourselves what we think is right or wrong, we don't need your unnecessary input. As though that wasn't bad enough, I returned to my maternal side to see even more nonsense happen. Lesson learnt, if you are nice you tend to get bullied, even by your own blood.

Anyway, I'm not sad, but full of disappointment and anger. Sometimes I wish I was more detached, oh well :).

2Do

2009-11-19T01:47:00.001+08:00

While I’m taking a break from studying, and relaxing a little before going to sleep, here’s a list of stuff I intend to do this holiday:

Geeky Stuff:

Set up Windows 7 and Ubuntu 9.10 (Dual-boot).
Set up Android build environment in Ubuntu 9.10 so I can contribute to some of the system apps, hopefully.
Code out an Android program, will release more details when it’s more solidified.

Personal:

Exercise at least 3 times a week. I feel flabby.

Relationships:

Spend more time with Bunny Geri <3.
Learn rollerblading from/with her :P.
Batam with The Guys?
Catch up with Kelvin and the rest of the HDKs.

Seems quite reasonable to achieve all of them. Good night world.

Long Boring Post

2009-11-05T01:47:00.001+08:00

Sometimes as friends we’d expect the other party(ies) to get the message, but the truth is things are seldom this way. If you want the other person to get it, talk to him or her. Actions may speak louder than words, but people will usually take your actions at face value, thus missing what you’re trying to hint altogether. I think it is sad that we’re in a society where people seldom dare to voice out, and it seems worse when it comes to the people close to us. Just take a look at your daily ride in the MRT or bus. When someone leans against the holding pole, you can clearly see on the faces of the other commuters that they are not very pleased over it, especially if they want to hold onto the pole too. Yet, very few people will actually tell the person off. Recently, I learnt that sometimes, words mean a lot more than actions. It sounds stupid, I know. Imagine you’re with a really wonderful partner. You know from his or her actions that he or she truly loves you, but your partner never once says “I love you” to you. How would you feel?

Another thing I often hear people telling me is “Be the change you want to be.” As always, things are easier said than done. Sometimes I see the people who tell me that NOT practising their own advice. We’re sometimes confined to the restrictions of society, to the point that being and doing the things that define you may often end up with you not having a job, or something as naive as having a group of people to hang out with. In that aspect I’d say we are all hypocrites.

This has been one of the worst semester for me, not in terms of results (no idea about that, really), but in terms of how I feel about it. I don’t feel like I’ve learnt much at all, and all I care about is having a break. This semester also reminded me never to depend on others when it comes to your own responsibilities, not even a little. Humans are peculiar beings. We have a habit of doing unpredictable things and letting people down at times when they really need you. I’ve lost count of the number of times this has happened. As they say, in life, when you die with 5 good friends, you’ve had a great life.

It has been a tiring semester not because of school only, but also due to all the other things that have been happening. When I think about it now, I realized many things that I thought didn’t affect me, in actual fact, actually changed my perception towards many things. I’m glad I realized it now, rather than later. I realized as much as I may seem family-oriented, I have never been one to really express, or actually feel it. That’s why, when I get a chance to play with my cousins recently, I actually feel quite happy.

As you grow older there’s this want (need, maybe?) to do more and more things, but at the same time, time seems to be getting shorter and shorter.

We never truly treasure what we have. The richer people I know are always talking about how their lives suck, about unrequited love, about not having enough money to buy a LV bag, the list goes on. On the other hand, I’ve friends who want to do everything that I feel makes life that much more meaningful, but they:

Can’t do it because they lack the money.
Can’t do it because they lack the money, and are working very hard just to get by, and as a result, lack the time as well.

I find it amazing and sad at the same time. What if, just for a day, the wealth of the rich whiners goes to the poorer ones. I think it’ll be a happier day for all of them. It would make no difference to the whiners since they will still be complaining anyway, and the people with dreams but no money can fulfill their dreams. It’d actually be good for the richer ones, since they may then see that life is much more than their material wants and sad love stories.

I’ve recently seen a lot of people who are blessed with great kids, but are themselves a curse to this kids. Some people shouldn’t be parents. With all of my flaws, including my supposedly bad temper, I think I’d still make a better parent, at least in terms of emotional support. I’m not a parent but I’ve got wonderful parents who do not send me for every damn course they FEEL I should join, or lose their temper at me for doing badly at a test.

I think this is going to be the last post for a while. My exams are coming up in approximately 3 weeks, and being the leader of tomorrow that I always am, I am completely unprepared. Starting right now, I’m going to study. The whole of next week will be dedicated to Math. Have yet to plan out a full timetable, intending to do one soon. In fact, I was reading my Cryptography textbook when I decided to blog.

Well, at the end of the day, this is just another blog post. Good night.

Almost Here

2009-10-25T14:32:00.001+08:00

Conversation Between Me and Greg

2009-10-20T00:37:00.001+08:00

(12:22 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	i sad over my haircut now damn cock cut too short like ns hair
(12:25 AM) wysie is bun's \|:	mine also as in i cut then now the sides short like small beng lol
(12:25 AM) wysie is bun's \|:	^5
(12:27 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	mine like lol this
(12:28 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	Sent an ink message:
(12:28 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	like cock
(12:28 AM) wysie is bun's \|:	LOL
(12:29 AM) wysie is bun's \|:	wah u draw v nice
(12:29 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	lol wtf
(12:30 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	Sent an ink message:
(12:30 AM) wysie is bun's \|:	Sent an ink message:
(12:30 AM) wysie is bun's \|:	wtf
(12:30 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	WTF lol
(12:30 AM) wysie is bun's \|:	i suck at drwing leh LOL
(12:30 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	if u look like this i will luff like fuck
(12:31 AM) wysie is bun's \|:	Sent an ink message:
(12:31 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	Sent an ink message:
(12:31 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	like this?
(12:31 AM) wysie is bun's \|:	make the sides shorter but front longer
(12:32 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	Sent an ink message:
(12:32 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	like this?
(12:32 AM) wysie is bun's \|:	ya ya
(12:32 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	still ok compared to mine leh
(12:33 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	Sent an ink message:
(12:33 AM) wysie is bun's \|:	Wtf lol ok one la
(12:33 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	supposed to be mohawk can?
(12:34 AM) AKU POTONG RAMBU:	lol

Please forgive the formatting, it was a straight copy and paste :P.

Hello?

2009-10-19T00:22:00.001+08:00

Hello all, been a while. Life’s been quite hectic. I spent the whole of last week trying to finish my diet analysis assignment for one of my modules (GEK1529). The scope/requirements were very vague, and I’ve no idea how much info I should include or not include. Well, in the end I just decided to include as much as I can. I’ve to admit it was a pretty interesting experience. I spent countless hours in the NUS Science Library (first time there!), looking through tables after tables of food composition. On the darker side, I’m behind schedule for almost all my modules now. My time management skills are simply top-notch.

On a brighter note, I decided to finish the next assignment for the module as well, so I can probably ignore this module for a while. Also, it seems most of my assignments are done (ahead of deadline). In fact I think all of them are done, just need to finish up the report, which should not take too long. *hopes someone in the group will do it so i can relax*

Anyway, I watched Funny People yesterday, not a bad show, but not awesome either. Watch it if you’ve a lot of time (it’s 2.5hours). It’s meaningful, but draggy. Also, THIS IS THE SHORTEST WEEKEND I HAVE WITH GERI :(. Ah, well. She got her Doo Doo Milk Biscuit though, lol :D.

I can’t wait for this semester to be over, it feels like the worst one ever (since poly). Lack of focus, lack of results, lack of everything. I don’t even feel like studying. I’d rather spend everyday coding, doing assignments, meeting deadlines, than to revise. They seem to repel me somehow, the lecture notes and the textbooks (and honestly, some of the lecturers too). We need good lecturers, good teachers, not good researchers :(.

I seem to have lost my confidence completely, when it comes to studies. I keep telling myself, I’ll change everything when this semester ends. The fact is, I should just do it now. So stop f-ing around, Mr Wysie :D.

I FEEL MOTIVATED SUDDENLY! (Only for now)

Good night all!

2009-10-04T02:47:00.001+08:00

Lots of people want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down. - Oprah Winfrey

How true :). I had a wonderful evening/night with Geri the Bun and my awesome friends who I’m sure are willing to take the bus with me :P.

Also, I actually found the RMIT event pretty enjoyable, although I was only involved in like 0.0001% of it. For some reason the way the students behave made me smile, even though I usually dislike noise. I think it’s because it reminds me of my polytechnic days, something I can never dream of seeing in my own school, very sadly.

Geri is an awesome speaker :P! I’m so proud of my Bun! Haha :D. Words can’t describe how awesome she is to me ^^.

On another note, I watched Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs with Geri yesterday. It’s a VERY good show :). I think it’s especially true that sometimes we find it very hard to express what we really feel, and end up using corny words, or worse, hurtful words, when what we really want to say is, “I care. Please be fine.” With that said, I think it’s better that we are this way, instead of the crap I hear in life sometimes, like “You’re the best, bro.” every single time they meet, or some other similar crap, you know what I mean. On the other hand, of course it’s good to speak your mind/heart more often :). Just don’t be a wanna-be :P.

I accept the very sad fact that I don’t like my school life. You know it sucks when I like my modules more than some of the people I know :). Not like it matters a lot to me anymore. Some things just aren’t worth your time. Don’t even bother to try and understand. If people like to cause pain and drama for themselves, why should you care?

Also, I was a partial fashion disaster today. I’ve learnt my lesson not to mix stripes with checkers :P, although I still think it looked pretty ok *beams with pride*. Thanks for the advice though :D.

With regards to my midterm, I shall work harder :).

2009-09-29T23:53:00.003+08:00

Recently I had my MA1521 mid-term, which I screwed up and am sure I will fail. It sucks because I really put in a lot of effort into it, much more than any module, and I skipped an entire week of lessons at NTU so I can focus on it.

The worst part is that it's not that I don't know how to do, but for some reason I made ridiculous careless mistakes that cost me, a lot. It's a MCQ, so if you're wrong, that's it. No working marks, no nothing.

So I'm probably getting less than 10% for this 20% weightage test, and I've to somehow get 80% for the final.

Some stupid mistakes I made include seeing a t as 1, differentiating a constant and somehow it remains a constant instead of 0.

The only good news is that hopefully whatever I've learnt helps me for the final paper.

Sigh. Have to get over this shitty feeling somehow. If I was just clueless, it wouldn't have been this bad. It's bad because I knew how to do them, yet I f-up. As they always say, suck it up, move on. I know.

Awesome :)

2009-09-20T04:25:00.001+08:00

More! http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=8C981A83A416312A

AndroBlogger

2009-09-20T03:38:00.001+08:00

just a test post.

:( =( :[ =[

2009-09-10T21:53:00.001+08:00

About 2 years ago Geri gave me a picture of us, nicely framed, and puzzled-dized (is there such a word?). Since then, I’ve always displayed it at the top of one of my shelves.

Today, after a tiring day, I bought dinner home. As I turned on the fan, and began taking out my wallet and all, the picture frame dropped, and shattered beside me, narrowly missing my head.

I am very sad.

Good thing is the picture, though a puzzle, is still perfectly intact.

It was like one of those moments from a movie, whereby someone representing a couple will suddenly break or drop in the presence of one of them signifying a bad omen for them :(. I hope none of that happens.

I shall look on the bright side! The puzzle is still complete :D, and I’m safe!

Good Morning World!

2009-09-07T10:21:00.001+08:00

SourceL http://zee.posterous.com/its-morning-already

^^

2009-09-06T21:53:00.001+08:00

Cleaned up the blog layout, removed a couple of unnecessary stuff ^^. Anyway, I had a wonderful birthday celebration yesterday :D! Thank you everyone!

Dinner was @ Sunset Bay @ ECP. When I arrived I saw two Hello Kitty Happy Birthday balloons. One was for me, and the other for Jeremy. Also, I received a picnic mat, a picnic bag, and some food, and of course a voucher for going to Jazz By The Beach :P. Haha.

I had Tropicana Chicken (or something like that) for dinner. Mac, Jeremy, Chin Ming and Kenny had it as well. I’m not a food person, so I don’t know how to rate it, but I’d say it’s good but a little too dry. Geri had a platter of nuggets, samosa and fries, and we all helped to finish it :P. Greg had fish filet, while Pate as usual, decided to have salad. Haha. Jeremy’s friends, Adeline and Nick, had spaghetti and fish filet respectively.

The birthday cake came after dinner, and it was very nice! Haha :D.

Dearie and Pate had to leave 1/2 way to send Joanna off, and we had to walk quite far just to get a cab. Sunset Bay’s really a little inaccessible if you aren’t driving. After Jeremy and I sent Pate and Geri off, we went back to Sunset Bay where the rest of the people were. Shortly after, I realised my Hello Kitty balloon was missing :(! The weight holding it down was on the floor though. The string holding it must have snapped, and Hello Kitty flew to the heavens. Lol.

Shortly after, Adeline, Nick and Kenny left, while the rest of us decided to walk to McDonald’s. It was far, but fun :D. Chin Ming and Mac actually survived the walk :X! Geri and Pate returned to join us soon after.

Initially, we walked to McDonald’s as we wanted to find a place (any one of the benches in ECP) to sit down and drink. The weather forecast showed that it may rain at night, so we wanted shelter (McDonald’s) in case it rains. However, there were no empty benches, and we ended up ordering drinks from McDonald’s, and mixing it with the Hennessy :D. Lol. We then played some drinking games for the rest of the night.

That’s about it! Words can’t describe everything, but thank you people for the memories :D.

On another note, if people don’t do the things you expect/think/believe/hope they will do, there’s nothing you can do either, right? So I’ve learnt to just accept it :D.

2009-09-05T15:10:00.001+08:00

For those of you who’ve yet to seen this, I highly suggest you do!

http://www.mitadmissions.org/topics/life/workplay_balance_at_mit/50_things.shtml

Although it was written for his students, I find that a lot of the things written inside applies to all of us, student or not, and some of it actually hit me quite hard, while others just make me smile. It’s real nice, and among the list, those that mean a lot or make a lot of sense to me are:

1. Your friends will change a lot over the next four years. Let them.

2. Call someone you love back home a few times a week, even if just for a few minutes.

5. Adjust your schedule around when you are most productive and creative. If you're nocturnal and do your best work late at night, embrace that. It may be the only time in your life when you can.

6. If you write your best papers the night before they are due, don't let people tell you that you "should be more organized" or that you "should plan better." Different things work for different people. Personally, I worked best under pressure - so I always procrastinated... and always kicked ass (which annoyed my friends to no end). ;-) Use the freedom that comes with not having grades first semester to experiment and see what works best for you.

7. At least a few times in your college career, do something fun and irresponsible when you should be studying. The night before my freshman year psych final, my roommate somehow scored front row seats to the Indigo Girls at a venue 2 hours away. I didn't do so well on the final, but I haven't thought about psych since 1993. I've thought about the experience of going to that show (with the guy who is now my son's godfather) at least once a month ever since.

14. Embrace the differences between you and your classmates. Always be asking yourself, "what can I learn from this person?" More of your education will come from this than from any classroom.

17. Working things out between friends is best done in person, not over email. (IM does not count as "in person.") Often someone's facial expressions will tell you more than his/her words.

23. It's important to think about the future, but it's more important to be present in the now. You won't get the most out of college if you think of it as a stepping stone.

24. When you're living on a college campus with 400 things going on every second of every day, watching TV is pretty much a waste of your time and a waste of your parents' money. If you're going to watch, watch with friends so at least you can call it a "valuable social experience."

28. Every once in awhile, there will come an especially powerful moment when you can actually feel that an experience has changed who you are. Embrace these, even if they are painful.

29. No matter what your political or religious beliefs, be open-minded. You're going to be challenged over the next four years in ways you can't imagine, across all fronts. You can't learn if you're closed off.

31. Don't always lead. It's good to follow sometimes.

41. Make a complete ass of yourself at least once, preferably more. It builds character.

As I was reading through the list, I realised I’ve stopped doing many things on the list that I once did. It’s quite sad really, and I’m going to do something about it.

Do read the list, some of it MAY seem like common sense, but common sense isn’t really common nowadays. Most people are on the extremes. Either they give everything and everyone up just to study, or they give up completely on their studies and university becomes just a social gathering ground…

<3

2009-09-05T11:26:00.001+08:00

2009-08-19T00:55:00.001+08:00

You think you’re on the right track, that you’re focused, then you realised you’ve been using the wrong map all along. What next?

I seriously need to reconsider my priorities but life moves at a pace far too quickly for me to catch up. Time to change lanes I guess. Time to let go.

At times I wish I was better-natured. I hate it when I lose or get close to losing my temper.

But oh well, life’s just a joke sometimes. A big joke. Sometimes I think it’s true that a leopard cannot change its spots.

I read that the purpose of life is a life of purpose, but I’m unable to define “purpose”. I never seem to be contented, despite some of my achievements. I don’t seem to appreciate many things. It’s like there’s never enough. I feel like skipping school tomorrow.

Ah, screw it :).

The truth is I love conflicts. I think conflicts promote progress. Too bad I often find myself avoiding them as well. For some reason I don’t know. Acting nice, maybe.

Update ^^

2009-08-15T01:28:00.001+08:00

It’s been forever since I updated, so here’s one. I’ve been wanting to update, and I’m always full of things to write, but everytime I start typing I end up surfing the net and forgetting what to blog about.

So the first week of school just ended. I’m currently on exchange to NTU. There’re some things I prefer in NTU, some things I prefer in NUS. With that said, it’s been pretty ok so far. Nothing really exciting, but nothing really bad either.

I’ve been spending most of my holidays on Android-related stuff, and I seriously *LOVE* the Android platform. It’s amazing :P. Anyway, I’d probably start a blog with Android-related stuff, but then again I think I lack the discipline to update it properly.

On another note, I went over to Geri’s place to help with making some pre-mixed Oreo cake. I now have lots of respect for people who bake :D. It’s so troublesome!

There’s so much more stuff to actually rant about, but who gives a shit :). Live your life to the fullest!

Edit: Sing Dollars is awesome :).

2009-07-26T00:25:00.001+08:00

I find it ridiculous, and mildly entertaining the extent to which some of the guys I know go to show they’re “gentlemenly”. Wake up your damn idea.

It’s amusing and very sad that most of them have this misconception that talking to a girl implies that you like her. Life is really sad this way, you know? Are your lives lacking so much that you feel the need to have unnecessary drama?

I want to blog and use so much profanities that I don’t feel like blogging after all. Get the idea?

I realised I don’t smile or laugh as much as I used to.

This is screwed up.

Untitled

2009-07-01T02:40:00.001+08:00

Hi all, it's been a long time since I've posted anything at all. I finally have a good break since I started school last year, but it's not much of a break to be honest.

I got a HTC Magic and a MacBook Pro 13-inch recently, and both of them are amazing gadgets! I shall blog more some other time.

On a more important note, it's been 3 years and 11 months since I got with my wonderful Geri! ^_^

Reminds Me of M*****n :X

2009-06-03T20:15:00.001+08:00

see more Lolcats and funny pictures

Update

2009-05-12T22:31:00.001+08:00

Hi all, it’s been a while since I updated. Exams are over, and results will be out on 29 May. Wish me luck!

On another note, today’s my first day of school (again), as I'm taking a module during NUS Special Sem I (Sem III). I still feel like I haven’t rested enough, but well =). Today’s a productive day! I met Yan Hao at 8.30AM for a jog, went for my lesson at 10AM. Ended at 12PM. Wanted to settle some stuff but the right people weren’t around. Watched Horsemen at VivoCity at 2.40PM. Quite a good show, I liked it. Finished reading 2 books “Chicken Soup for the Couple’s Soul” and “The Five People You Meet in Heaven”. Sent out a couple of emails that I’ve dragged for too long. Am very tired. So yup, that’s my day so far.

I went to Fort Canning Park (FCP) on Saturday to watch “Much Ado About Nothing” with Geri dearie! I enjoyed the play! Adrian Pang’s really good, and the rest of the cast were quite amazing as well! However, I’m seriously not much of a picnic person. When I look at how the people around us, mostly foreigners, were enjoying themselves, I can’t help but wonder. Haha =).

On a similar note, I may want to watch Sing Dollars!

Cute Kitty

2009-04-27T17:00:00.001+08:00

Lol.

2009-04-27T15:34:00.001+08:00

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

On a more serious note, my first paper’s tomorrow. I miss Geri =(.

3 More Days To First Paper

2009-04-25T18:07:00.001+08:00

Test 2

2009-04-23T23:52:00.001+08:00

Haha.

Multimedia message

2009-04-23T23:48:00.001+08:00

Test post with random pic from mobile.

(Proper) Update

2009-04-20T09:29:00.001+08:00

I haven’t really posted for a while, so here’s one. I’m having my first paper on April 28, followed by another on April 29. My third paper’s on May 2. Fourth paper’s on May 4, and my last paper’s on May 5. Challenging!

I hate the way it’s scheduled though. Due to my paper on May 2, I won’t be able to accompany Geri for her cousin’s wedding on May 1, which really sucks, considering she has been looking forward to it so much, and I’ve tailored a shirt for that event as well. Well =(. Honestly, it’s all about priorities, but sometimes I really don’t have much of a choice.

Also, Geri’s bestie, Chrystal, will probably be giving birth sometime around that period. Hopefully I’ll have a little free time.

On to another topic, I seriously dislike some taxi drivers. I often hear them complaining, that when the price doesn’t drop they’re also losing business, etc. etc. It’s all bullshit. Honestly, I don’t care whether you’re making as much money as you’d like, but for **** sake do your job well.

About 2 weeks ago Geri had a bad case of hyperventilation. Yes, it’s just hyperventilation, some people might say, but at that point in time I was really worried that it had something to do with the heart. Of course, many taxis just drove by. Yes, I know, how are they supposed to know it was an emergency? But that’s not the main point. The main point is they do not stop. They only want passengers during peak hours, and they complain they don’t have enough passengers.

Just 3 days ago, I shared a cab with Chin Ming, Jeremy, and of course, Geri. The taxi driver sucks. He wanted us to get down initially as he said he was rushing for time. So we said, “Ok.” As we were getting down he asked where we were going. We told him the 4 places (one for each of us) to take us to, and he said “Ok”. Throughout the journey he was unhappy. Apparently, after we all left, except for Chin Ming, the bloody driver complained to his friend over the phone that we’re wasting his time. For **** sake, don’t do it with a customer in your car.

Of course, the list goes on. A search in Google will result in many more stories. Also, I’m just generalizing, and I know there’re some really nice taxi drivers, but they are rare.

So, stop complaining, just drive, and do your job with a smile. Asshole(s).

Last but not least, I will be missing my Geri and friends and family during these 2 weeks or so very much =(. And the previous post is dedicated to Geri. I’m sure you already know that love =).

When I Need You

2009-04-19T02:35:00.001+08:00

When I need you
I just close my eyes and I’m with you
And all that I so want to give you
It’s only a heartbeat away

When I need love
I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night and day

Miles and miles of empty space in between us
The telephone can’t take the place of your smile
But you know I won’t be travelin’ forever
It’s cold out, but hold out, and do like I do

When I need you
I just close my eyes and I’m with you
And all that I so wanna give you babe
It’s only a heartbeat away

It’s not easy when the road is your driver
Honey that’s a heavy load that we bear
But you know I won’t be traveling a lifetime
It’s cold out but hold out and do like I do
Oh, I need you

When I need love
I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night and day

When I need you
I just close my eyes
And you’re right here by my side
Keeping me warm night and day

I just hold out my hands
I just hold out my hand
And I’m with you darlin’
Yes, I’m with you darlin’
And all I wanna give you
It’s only a heartbeat away
Oh I need you darling
Oh I need you darling

Source: SongMeanings

Update, Yay?

2009-04-11T02:52:00.001+08:00

Been a while since I updated, have been really busy recently. That’s all.

After a while, you just stop caring. After all, they don’t see you.

That’s all, good night.

Update =)

2009-03-30T00:30:00.001+08:00

I had a good weekend with the perfect girlfriend =). It’s magical, how 3 years and 8 months down the road, it still feels like our first date every single time I meet her. Our relationship feels like a honeymoon that never ends =P. I love you Geri!

I love and enjoy the fact that we talk about almost everything =)!

On another note, it’s amusing and saddening when you talk to an old friend/acquaintance/enemy/classmate/whatever and he or she says stuff like, “You’ve changed.” You know what? If I did, where were you when I was facing all the shit and had to change as a result? Even more irritating are people who have betrayed you coming to talk to you as though nothing ever happened. I feel like a hypocrite talking to them, seriously. I resolve to have the strength to blank these people in future.

I have spent a lot of time reflecting, too much in fact, and I think it’s a waste of time. I look back at my secondary school and polytechnic days, at all my “friends” who conveniently left me when I was truly down. Yet, through these years, I never really blamed them. After all, I wasn’t strong enough. It’s only now that I truly dislike them. Why? Because it’s sad how they come and talk to you like nothing ever happened. Or even worse, they don’t talk to you. They only ask you questions when they need help. Friends?

I remember I used to have a couple of good friends from primary school. We went on to the same secondary school together, and of course, made a whole new lot of friends, and all of us used to be close together. Old friends and new friends alike. Then I started mixing with “bad company”, whom till today, are one of my closest friends, my HDKs. Bad company my ass. At least they are true as friends. What about the whole lot of friends? Well, I’ve no idea till today. For some reason I was outcasted. Rumours are a powerful thing. It’s sad because I thought you all were friends. Obviously I was wrong.

I’m not saying any of these with any grudges. It’s just interesting when I look back at everything that I’ve been through, at who are the people who’ve stood by me, and who are those that did not. After all, without sadness, what is happiness?

And for that reason alone, I am very thankful for some of the friends I have right now. You know who you are. If you’re doubtful then you probably aren’t one of them =). Friends have no need for doubts.

On yet another note, this semester has been going pretty well for me so far. I’m thankful, shall not complain too much =).

Have a good day people =).

Seriously…

2009-03-29T23:30:00.001+08:00

http://i.gizmodo.com/5189118/immense-ghostnet-computer-spy-system-is-going-to-put-cranky-windows-guy-over-the-edge

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/worldnews/asia/china/4927731/Chinese-collector-sabotaged-animal-head-auction.html

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/worldnews/asia/china/5058873/China-searches-for-missing-radioactive-material.html

Please play nice with the rest of the world.

2009-03-25T22:56:00.001+08:00

…

Contact lens came out during lecture.
Got a headache due to it.
Came back, wore a new pair, and went back to school to study.
Forgot to have dinner.
That’s about it.

Amusing really.

friend: a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard. From Dictionary.com

How true, sadly.

Within Temptation - Frozen

2009-03-25T12:22:00.001+08:00

I can't feel my senses
I just feel the cold
All colours seem to fade away
I can't reach my soul

I would stop running
If I knew there was a chance
It tears me apart to sacrifice it all
But I'm forced to let go

Tell me I'm frozen
But what can I do?
Can't tell the reasons
I did it for you

When lies turn into truth
I sacrifice for you
You say that I am frozen
But what can I do?
I can feel your sorrow
(I sacrifice)
You won't forgive me
(...)
But I know you'll be alright
(...)
It tears me apart that you will never know
But I have to let go

Tell me I'm frozen
But what can I do?
Can't tell the reasons
I did it for you

When lies turn into truth
I sacrifice for you
You say that I am frozen
But what can I do?

Everything will slip away
Shattered pieces will remain
When memories fade into emptiness
Only time will tell its tale
If it all has been in vain

I can't feel my senses
I just feel the cold

Frozen
But what can I do?
Frozen

Tell me I'm frozen
But what can I do?
Can't tell the reasons
I did it for you

When lies turn into truth
I sacrifice for you
You say that I am frozen

Frozen

Source: SongMeaning

Actions Can’t Speak After All

2009-03-24T20:27:00.001+08:00

I honestly don’t think the saying “Actions speak louder than words.” hold in today’s world.

Successful people are usually good public speakers. Do they always honour their words? Go figure. I could care less about that.

I’m just amused and disheartened (is that possible?) at the same time that despite what I’ve done for others, their impression of me drastically changes because of some things I said. Well, it doesn’t really matter now.

Learn to speak well, don’t be yourself. I’m sure people will like you more that way.

2009-03-18T13:20:00.001+08:00

Being sick seriously sucks. Last Friday, I had flu. On Saturday, I felt better. On Sunday, I was fine, but while I was out with Geri, I suddenly felt giddy. Had some problems sleeping, and on Monday morning, I was still giddy, so I decided to skip my first lecture to sleep instead. I felt better in the afternoon and evening. Then yesterday, I had flu again, accompanied by his good friend, fever. This is seriously shitty. I'm feeling better today, but not completely good.

The best part? This is one of my busiest week yet, and I am unable to do a single thing because of my stupid health.

That’s why I hate reading news.

2009-03-16T21:25:00.001+08:00

http://www.straitstimes.com/Breaking%2BNews/World/Story/STIStory_350791.html

http://www.straitstimes.com/Breaking%2BNews/World/Story/STIStory_350851.html

2009-03-13T01:03:00.001+08:00

My room’s light is spoilt =(. Just when I wanted to read a book to sleep. What the heck.

Anyway, don’t let your kinkiness take control over your common sense:

http://i.gizmodo.com/5168718/saber-saw-sex-toy-incident-diy-gone-very-very-wrong

While browsing Gizmodo, I came across two very nice videos, check them out here:

http://i.gizmodo.com/5168821/pretending-to-work-video-is-full-of-great-office-tips

http://gizmodo.com/389833/music-video-is-complete-mac-os-x-leopard-tour

Lastly, Geri drew something for me =P:

2009-03-07T01:30:00.001+08:00

2 papers down, 1 to go. Although things haven’t been going well =|. Anyway, more importantly, I miss Geri =(.

Light Painting, Funny Video (At End)

2009-03-02T00:11:00.001+08:00

I recently had a retreat with the FOW Committee, and Edwin introduced something called light painting to us. It was really fun! =)

Mine’s The Top Right One, Green Colour:

I’m The O:

I’m The 9:

My Numerous Attempts At Drawing A Heart:

I Forgot To Switch Off My Torch:

Tried To Draw A Heart With Eyes, Someone Drew A Pig Behind Me =(.

Sadly, Someone Drew A Nicer Heart Than Me (Can’t Remember Who):

My Best Attempt:

Lastly, LOL:

Women Drivers in Action

2009-02-24T00:21:00.001+08:00

God Doesn’t Know Everyone =(

2009-02-23T22:32:00.001+08:00

According to MetaFilter, God is online and everyone can chat with him!

http://www.dumb.com/god/index.php

Anyway, I am now convinced he doesn’t know everyone =(.

You: you know maclean?
God: No, tell me about him, her or it.

So God doesn’t know my friend. I decided to try Geri instead.

You: You know Geri?
God: I know very little about Geri . What kind of it do you like?
You: she's not an it.
God: not an it is not an it ?

God thought Geri was an it =(! When I tried to tell Him that Geri’s not an it, he went on to confuse me. With that said, God is kind of cool.

You: i am you
God: Impossible unless I am in auto-chat mode.

You: Why do you exist?
God: Reductionism.

You: God is in your heart.
God: Why do you think I am in your heart ?
You: Then where are you?
God: Good reasoning. I am in Heaven. Where are you?
You: Earth!
God: How do you like being on EARTH ?
You: Not a lot. How's Heaven?
God: Really you don't think so?Fine as far as I know.
You: You like Heaven?
God: I like science fiction. I like .

You: Are you everywhere?
God: I am God. I'm watching over you.
You: Thank you.
God: you are quite welcome.

Lol. Have fun people =).

Boy Killed By Chair

2009-02-23T02:10:00.001+08:00

WTF?

http://i.gizmodo.com/5157354/boy-killed-anally-when-office-chair-explodes

Wordle.net

2009-02-21T01:41:00.001+08:00

My Wordle based on the latest RSS feed (latest posts):

Geri’s Wordle based on the latest RSS feed (latest posts):

Sigh =(. MY NAME DID NOT EVEN APPEAR ONCE!!! Grouchy Puss appeared more times than me.

2009-02-21T00:21:00.001+08:00

I’ve been looking at some photos of some of my old friends, now probably acquaintances, on Facebook, and I realised most of them still stick close together, which is always a nice thing to see =).

Then I realised maybe I’m anti-social. Friends come and go, the truth is often quite sad isn’t it?

On another note, recess week has begun, but the amount of things to study and submit is amazing.

Bah.

2009-02-16T23:30:00.001+08:00

I’m very, very, very tired, and would probably be going to sleep soon, if not for the fact that my hair’s still wet from bathing. I tried going to sleep at 12.40AM yesterday, but fell asleep only after 2AM =(. I had to wake up at 6.30AM today for school. So I reached PGP around 8.30AM, unpacked some stuff, then headed for my first lesson.

Had lessons all the way till 3PM before having lunch. Had a lecture from 4PM to 6PM after that. It ended at 5.30PM, so I returned to my room first, and managed to work out till around 6.20PM. Then I walked from PGP to Computing Club’s room, where we had a meeting. The meeting ended at 7.35PM, but there was some work to be done. Finished it around 9PM. Then I warmed up, and jogged around NUS for one round, before heading to the supper place at PGP. Unfortunately, it was too packed, and I ended up having instant noodles for dinner.

Exercising itself is tiring. Studying itself is tiring. Do both of them and you’re gone. Lol.

On another note, I like my CS2301 Tutorial Class very much! =)

New Relatives!

2009-02-16T08:59:00.001+08:00

Well, my auntie Billie managed to find her younger sister after 47 years, which means I’ve a new auntie now! On top of that, I’ve a new cousin too! ^_^

Happy Valentine’s, Heart’s Alone And Covers

2009-02-15T18:59:00.002+08:00

I had a wonderful Valentine’s Day with Geri! If I don’t remember wrongly, this is the first Valentine’s I’ve spent with Geri in 2 or 3 years. Also, it’s the first time we spent proper couple time together in a long, long time =). Geri baked me cookies =P!

Also, I realized trying to make a heart using candles is a very tiring job, especially when you try to do it by the beach. Nonetheless, the final result was beautiful, even more so when I’m with Geri =).

Also, I was at the Esplanade on Friday with Geri, and happened to catch the “On The Waterfront” performance from 8.45PM till 9.30PM or so. The band was amazing, singing songs like “Sweet Child Of Mine”, “Stairway To Heaven”, among many others. However, the one performance that really got me was their rendition of Heart’s Alone. As such, I’ve found the following videos below for your viewing pleasure. I’ve previous posted some videos of Zoo performing Bryan Adams’ Heaven, and they’re truly amazing. The bad news? We didn’t manage to get the name of the band, and Esplanade’s website isn’t exactly the most informative. If anyone knows the name of the band, please let me know by tagging, by email, anything at all!

Heart – Alone (Live 1990)

Arnel Pineda – Alone (Zoo Band)

Heart – Alone (ZOO)

Charice And Arnel Pineda – Alone

Pull-Up Bar

2009-02-10T20:00:00.000+08:00

I bought a pull-up bar today, and have mounted it. Seems to be very stable so far, but not sure how well it will work out in the long run. Thanks to Qingwei for the suggestion =P!

Also, thank you dearie for spending time with me despite how tired and busy you are ^^. *hugs*

Pictures

2009-02-09T09:03:00.001+08:00

I’m taking SSS1207 (Natural Heritage of Singapore), and this module encourages us to visit certain places. I’ve uploaded the pictures =P.

Raffles Museum of Biodiversity Research

Tanah Merah Reclaimed Land & Beach Vegetation

At the same time, thank you Geri dearie for accompanying me =)!

=(

2009-02-08T17:39:00.001+08:00

http://i.gizmodo.com/5148867/the-secret-of-auto+tune-kanye-and-t+pain-are-not-good-singers

Forever Lost?

2009-02-08T02:16:00.001+08:00

The longest journey
Is the journey inwards.
Of him who has chosen his destiny,
Who has started upon his quest
For the source of his being.

Source: Wikipedia

LOL

2009-02-02T01:00:00.001+08:00

All The Best Raj! =)

2009-02-01T23:55:00.001+08:00

Raj has left for Australia for his studies, and the next time we see him we probably be in November/December (if we all save enough money each).

It’s going to feel weird from now on every Friday and Saturday =(. We’ll definitely miss you my friend =).

On another note, a couple of things have happened, and a few decisions have been made. Please do not judge and expect everyone to be like you, or agree with your principles. If you are a friend you would NOT be like this.

That’s also precisely why, so many years on, some of us are still amazingly close, but some of you have drifted away. I may not always agree with what you do, in fact, I’ll outright comment on it. However, I will never treat you with any contempt because of that, because friends NEVER do that. Friends stand by one another, regardless of beliefs and principles. Friends will listen, and enjoy one another’s company, despite the very different paths every one of us is walking.

Know where you stand, before you comment. Really. I’m surprised at what you said. Sadly, the person(s) I’m referring to will not even realize it. That’s really the saddest part of all.

No longer will I try to be a pacifist, because if I really were one, I wouldn’t have felt the anger. I really feel stupid for standing up for you when others were against you. Seriously.

With that said, I also realise that throughout these years there have been amazing friends who’ve stood by me, despite all of our busy schedule, and Raj, you’re definitely one of them (although I don’t agree with your ego 95% of the time). All the best, my friend! =)

To all those in the service industry, if you don’t want to lose your job, do you job with a SMILE.

Tag =\

2009-01-29T19:42:00.001+08:00

Rule: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose 16 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, its because I want to know more about you.

1. I am often late in meeting people I’m very close with, but always early in meeting newly-acquainted people.

2. I dislike noise and crowds.

3. I am very into technology and geeky stuff.

4. I’m hot-tempered, but usually at the wrong people.

5. I’m usually very random.

6. I lose interest in things very quickly, although I also get into new hobbies very quickly.

7. I’d love to be carefree, and get the shit out of the rat race in future. At the same time, I can imagine what I can do with money, so perhaps I won’t quit the rat race so quickly =P.

8. I can be very superficial, and sometimes I enjoy being so. My eyes will hurt if I have to look beyond the skin for everyone.

9. I think the glass is empty sometimes, but the jug is always full =P.

10. I love (almost) any genre of music and dace, but I can’t play any musical instrument or dance for nuts.

11. I love socializing, yet hate it at the same time. Hard to explain, really.

12. I always wonder who, what, when, where, why, and how?

13. I love psychology and sociology, and am usually quite amused or impressed by how people come up with various theories.

14. No, the world doesn’t revolve around any of you. I dislike self-centred people.

15. I don’t like being tagged, but because Geri tagged me I’ve no choice. I love her and am very happy today’s our 3.5 years together.

16. Don’t take me seriously unless you know (or think you know) me well enough =P. Misunderstandings will arise and I hate unnecessary conflicts ^_^.

Ok, that’s all. I’m too lazy to find 16 people who’s willing to tag. Freedom of tag, anyone? =\

UniSIM =\

2009-01-29T19:26:00.001+08:00

A couple of my good friends study at UniSIM, and they have been having problems accessing the site in Firefox.

A search in Google shows the following:

=\. Some more searching in Google shows the following:

Among many others. Just try search terms like “unisim attack site”, “unisim firefox problem”, etc.

I just hope that things will be fixed soon. Also, most of the forum posts, as well as my friends, have noted that while you will be able to access the site using Internet Explorer, their AVs (Avira, NOD32, among others) detected a virus on the site. Hopefully it’s just a false positive.

Ok Ok I Get It

2009-01-29T11:03:00.001+08:00

My Mum woke me up at 6am, thinking that I wanted to go school early! =( She even prepared breakfast! So I woke up at 6am, had breakfast, and went back to sleep at 7am. Oh, I should add that I slept at 3am last night.

Anyway, I woke up at 9am again, due to the very noisy construction work taking place at my block. I always thought that they could only start at 10am? Shall look into it later =P. I managed to force myself back to sleep, only to be disturbed at 10.30am again!

I get it. It’s time to wake up. Damn it =P.

Lenovo Ad =\

2009-01-27T01:23:00.001+08:00

I might be a little late on this, but wtf?

CNY!

2009-01-26T04:29:00.001+08:00

I just came back from my Dad’s side, and took a cab driven by a highly irresponsible and vulgar taxi driver. Well, instead of slowing down when making a turn, he decided to speed up. At that time, it was showing the Green Man, which means it’s supposed to be the pedestrians turn to cross. As Murphy would have it, a young man decided to cross the road, and the taxi driver had to do an emergency brake. Instead of feeling ashamed he decided to engage in a staring competition with the young man crossing the road, all the while spouting words that I abstain from on CNY!

The best part? He decided to end his speech on how irresponsible the young man was after he realised that my cousin and I were not interested, and he ended by saying, “THANKFULLY GOD IS WITH ME!” I guess he meant that if God wasn’t with him he would not have braked on time. It’s just amusing how he kept on ranting that it’s the young man’s fault, and how he would be able to bring this case to court should an accident occur. Maybe I should’ve been a nice person and told him that the pedestrian Green Man was on =\. The part when we paid for the taxi fare was amusing. He didn’t even turn around when collecting money, and was breathing very heavily. No idea why.

Seriously. Oh, buy 6235 for 4D. Maybe God is with that number too.

On another note, I’ve make-up tutorial this Saturday =(.

On yet another note, I had a good reunion dinner at my Mum’s side today. Sister came back for dinner, and I’m really glad my Mum and Sis talked =). After that, my Sis and I went down to my Dad’s side, and then went over to my Uncle Edwin’s side for a while, before returning to my Dad’s side. I had a good chat with my Grandma =).

I learnt people tend to place things in the context in which it’s easiest for them to understand. A good example would be when I was telling a friend of mine I needed to go to both my Mum’s and Dad’s side for reunion dinner. His reply was something like “You’re so greedy!”

Lol. Of course it’s not his fault. But close friends of mine would know why I need to go both sides =). I used to dread CNY because of this. But times have changed, and I’ve learnt to looked at things in a more positive light.

Finally, here’s to a Happy & Prosperous Chinese New Year! Make sure you buy 6235! LOL =).

=|

2009-01-22T01:19:00.001+08:00

So true.

http://i.gizmodo.com/5136176/the-youth-ball-welcomes-obama-with-a-sea-of-digital-cameras

^^

2009-01-20T01:41:00.001+08:00

First Week Of School

2009-01-19T23:45:00.001+08:00

One week of school has passed, and I’m still in holiday-mode =(. Well, I resolve to fix this by next week (which is the start of the tutorials and labs and everything else).

On another note, I realised over last weekend that the time I have to spend with Geri is really little =(. Add my family and friends to the list of people I’d love to spend time with, and there’s simply too little time. Nonetheless, I believe with proper time management I’d be able to find more time =).

Sometimes I think what I lack is hope.

Soh Ru Tan

2009-01-18T23:00:00.001+08:00

I am Soh Ru Tan, thanks to a certain idiot =P.

2009-01-14T22:38:00.001+08:00

I’ve resolved to spend at most $10 a day, and it seems to be working well so far =).

School Starting Tomorrow

2009-01-11T22:16:00.001+08:00

:’(

Alphaville – Forever Young

2009-01-05T02:48:00.001+08:00

I wish our generation had more meaningful songs like this, instead of the usual raging hormones kind of songs. Or songs that sound so happy although it’s about a sad breakup. Bla bla.

AMK Hub, Singapore Zoo, Marina Barrage, Changi Airport, All In One Day

2009-01-04T02:33:00.001+08:00

Today's damn tiring, but it feels good to try something different every now and then! I woke up around 8.30AM, fell back asleep till 9AM, and met Geri at Bedok MRT Station at 9.50AM instead of the initially planned 9.30AM (sorry dear =P).

Took the MRT to Ang Mo Kio, and reached around 10.40AM or so. Mac and Greg had already reached (surprise =X). Anyway, I got quite ~~irritating~~ irritated by the DBS staff, for being so helpful in telling me that the machine has no cash after I've queued up for 15 minutes? It didn't help that the DBS machine at AMK Hub's basement has a minimum limit of $200. Thankfully, Mac lead us to the POSB machine nearby. Took a cab down to the Singapore Zoo, where the adventure began.

I might post some pictures up once I get hold of them, although I think I'll probably just direct you all to either Geri's or Mac's site. Lol. It was really fun, although my legs were really tired. We walked literally non-stop from 12PM till 6PM, except for a 20 min lunch break. The white tigers are really majestic. The lions were lazy though. During the feeding time a piece of meat actually hit the lion right in his face, and he didn't even bother. On the other hand, the white tigers leap/jump to catch the food using their paws/mouths. Lazy lions =(.

The rest of the animals were very interesting in their own right, especially the Hamadryas Baboons. Greg, Geri, and I saw something that's not very nice to see. Lol =P.

The Zoo trip was really fun, except for two incidents. The first incident when this asshole had to say really loudly "No flash allowed" to his friend, after I took a picture with flash. I know it's not really right to take pictures with flash, but that picture was seriously an exception. I told him straight that I was the one who used the flash, and instead of talking to me like a man should, he acted like he didn't hear me and started telling his friend that if he uses flash the animals will get angry. Look, not everyone gives a shit about your DSLR and l33t photography skills. It's really amazing considering you or your friends even declared loudly that "Monkeys come from humans." =) Seriously, if you want to be an ass and all, talk to me in the face.

Secondly, the Ben & Jerry's at Kids World. WTF? That's all I can say.

At the end of the zoo trip at 6pm, I think most of us wanted to go home, but after some discussion, we ended up taking a Ah Beng Uncle's taxi back to Mac's place. That uncle was talking on the phone about a lot of crap that's not really nice for his customers to hear. ATTP asshole. Anyway, Mac then took his car keys and drove us to Marina Barrage. The journey there was a navigational experience for me. Lol. Marina Barrage is nice. Nice wind, nice lights, nice all. Just remember to bring your own food. Seriously.

We then decided to head down to ECP for dinner, but along the way, Geri decided for us to go to Changi Airport instead. We had Popeye's, and met one of the most ungracious people ever. Basically, we had all gotten our food and were already eating. This asshole sitting beside us stood up, and as he took his bag and turned, his bag hit Greg's drink, which caused it to topple and spill all over his food. This asshole's wife saw it happening, and instead of apologizing (I thought she did, must be dreaming), she simply told her husband, "Eh your bag." So what did this guy do? He turned around, said "Oh", DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER TO APOLOGIZE, and walked around. I don't know why Greg and I said "Never mind", but I think it was the right choice. Mac and Geri were very insistent that we should've told them off, and got that asshole to apologize, but I seriously feel it's a waste of time. No point talking to this kind of people, wasting our time, and possibly screwing up the mood even more. Still, now that I think about it... _|_. The best part is he's with his wife, and a kid. Talk about setting a good example.

We then walked around for a while, before Mac sent all of us home. Reached home around 11pm. Lol. Thank you Mac for the free tickets to the zoo, and the rides =).

Friends

2009-01-03T00:40:00.001+08:00

Met up with my HDKs after such a long time, and it's always nice to see your old friends =). I've known Kel for 13 years, and Boon and Jove for 8 years or so. Although it's true that the quality of a friendship is more important than the quantity, it's always good to know that these are friends who've stood by you through the years. Had dinner at Downtown East's Food Court (Joven and I wanted Subway, Kelvin was neutral, but Boon was VERY against Subway), which is something very uncommon for me. I just don't like food courts for some reason. Coffeeshops are okay, but food courts are no-no. Thankfully, the chicken chop I had was quite good.

After that, we went to Pasir Ris Town Park and had some drinks, chit-chat for a little while, before I left to meet Mac, Greg and Raj. Similarly, these 3 are friends I've known for 5 years or so, and everytime I look back it's a wonderful feeling.

Although I do not always agree with what my friends choose to do with their lives, I'm always thankful that they never force it upon me, nor try to convince me that what they're doing is right. In fact, some of them probably know how not right it is, but well, it's their choice, and just remember, don't ever do things that you'll live to regret.

Kel will be flying around a lot this year, while Boon will be hard at work, and Jove will be working and studying. It's going to be hard to meet up, but well =).

Raj will be leaving for Australia on 1st Feb, Mac and Greg will be starting school on 19th Jan, Jeremy will be starting school soon (can't remember off-hand), Patience will be starting school on 5th Jan, dearest Geri will be starting school on 5th Jan, while I'll be starting school on 12th Jan. It'd be hard to meet up too, so yup.

Life still goes on. One lesson I learnt today is when you're in a bad mood or feeling down, it's always good to talk to your friends about it, because your friends usually feel it too, and it'd only spoil the mood more the more you try to hide it.

Sometimes getting detached from certain people, even your parents, is better for yourself. Emotional attachments will indirectly cause you to have expectations, to have hope, and when that fails you're only going to feel angry and disappointed. The worst part? You seldom take it out on the person who caused you these feelings, but almost always take it out on the people who actually care about you. So it's always a vicious cycle.

Today I also realised that sometimes I'm very unfair to others.

Hello 2009!

2009-01-01T03:20:00.001+08:00

2008 has been an eventful year for me. I ORD-ed after serving 2 years of National Service, went back to school, made some new friends, lost a couple of friends, etc. Every year's the same actually, lol, except for the ORD-ing and schooling part.

With that being said, I just want to thank all my friends and family for staying with me, and of course to my love, Geri =).

Happy New Year! =)

2009 here I come =)!

Twilight (Just My Opinion)

2008-12-24T02:03:00.001+08:00

Just had to do this. I think this is the worst movie I've watched in a long time. Seriously. I'd rather watch some lame "Date Movie", or something. I didn't really read the book, couldn't force myself to go on reading after the introduction.

Anyway, the movie was horrible. I didn't like the acting, it was so lame. The "love" between Edward and Bella is simply too amazing for my liking. Bella has the "I need you inside me right now" look everytime she looks at Edward, and seriously, it's really stupid to have a family whereby everyone is OBVIOUSLY PALER THAN USUAL, and not have anyone suspect anything.

Taken from Wikipedia:

Meyer says that her vampire mythology differs from that of other authors because she wasn't informed about the canon vampires, saying, "It wasn't until I knew that Twilight would be published that I began to think about whether my vampires were too much the same or too much different from the others. Of course, I was far too invested in my characters at that point to be making changes... so I didn't cut out fangs and coffins and so forth as a way to distinguish my vampires; that's just how they came to me."

I think that's such a big lie. EVERYONE KNOWS VAMPIRES HAVE FANGS AND HAVE A WEAKNESS TO SUNLIGHT. It's so obvious she made her vampires different from others on purpose. Even my cousins (who are like 5 or 6 years old) know vampires have fangs. They've skin that glitter/whatever in the sunlight? Seriously, what kind of crap is that?

I don't even want to comment on the character development, which is non-existent. The love between them? Seriously, what love? I don't mind fantasy/fairy tales, but this show failed miserably at it.

I can't believe this is a show that some people squeal over (YES, guys too what the hell).

So what did I like about this show? The fighting at the end, because there finally was some action, and more importantly, because I can't wait to get out of the cinema.

Worst show I've watched in the past 2+ years (at least). Horribly unbelievable (even as a fantasy) crap. I can't believe on the movie posters they actually said it's the most epic love story since Titanic.

Twilight fans, don't get offended, it's just my opinion. I'm not offended when I see you all squealing and saying retarded things in public like,

"Love should be intense like this."

"Love at first sight should be like this."

"Characters like this are so hard to find in real life."

It's quite cute to see the dreams you all have. Unfortunately for myself, I don't live in such an unbelievable dream world.

Which I'm actually thankful for.

On another note, I'm a big fan of vampires/werewolves movies, but Twilight is definitely out of the list.

Numero Uno

2008-12-23T22:38:00.001+08:00

We usually make friends, relationships, and hope that they remain close to us forever. It's just like when we were younger we wanted our mother, father, whoever to be the most important person to us.

But feelings can change, and it can happen really quickly. When you get married, is your mum or dad still going to be the most important person to you? Or is it going to be your spouse? What about when you've kids? Of course, some of you will be quick to say that all of them are equally important, but are things really that simple? What if you have to make a choice?

Similarly, at our age right now, we want this girlfriend, or friend, of ours to be the most important person in our heart. But it's not going to be an unchanging fact. Sadly, for most of us, it's hard to accept that. It's hard when you realise that your friends no longer mean the most to you, and it's also hard when you realise that you no longer mean so much to someone. The important thing is REALISING that, and learning to accept it, on both sides. Be honest with yourself. You might feel like shit that your mum is no longer the most important person to you, and your mum might probably feel hurt knowing that. But it's important to be honest to yourself.

It's not just a feeling, it's a decision. At least, to me it is.

It's a decision that, when you've already decided that someone is a friend to you, when the time comes for you to be there for him/her, you'd be there. Even if the most important person to you is your spouse. Even if you've decided that someone is number one in your heart, surely there are others who are important to you?

This reminds me of a post Mac posted a while back.

'God determines who walks into your life. You decide who you'd let walk away, who you let to stay and who you refuse to let go.'

Have a Merry Christmas my friends =).

On another note, I'm quite happy with my examination results, except for one subject, but oh well =).

Results Will Be Out In Approximately 11 Hours

2008-12-22T22:23:00.001+08:00

Wish me luck =|.

Just Some Music Videos

2008-12-21T16:20:00.001+08:00

Senses Fail - Family Tradition

Listen to the lyrics, it's really meaningful.

The Maine - Everything I Ask For Music Video

Just found the lyrics kinda cute. Lol.

Photobucket Browsing

2008-12-17T01:01:00.001+08:00

Random

2008-12-16T01:22:00.001+08:00

Results will be out exactly a week from now, and the holidays have been really boring so far. I can't seem to kick the habit of sleeping late, although I've been trying (and failing most of the time). To add to that, I haven't been accomplishing many of the goals I've set for myself this holiday, mainly because some last minute shit will always crop up that completely screws my schedule up.

But I'm to blame, because at the end of the day, I'm in control. I just hate it when my schedule's not going according to plan, and tend to let it affect me a little more than necessary. I've been exercising quite a lot, but I can't really jog as my old injuries seem to be acting up. I'm still hoping to be able to get to Genting before school starts =).

Anyway, a lot of things are affecting me, or rather, I've been letting a lot of things affect me unnecessarily (again). An idle mind is the devil's workshop, as they say, and it's really true. I should seriously do something about my life now.

Sometimes I wish people would care more about others, and sometimes I wish that upon myself too. Feeling disappointed, but it's okay because life's full of ups and downs.

Wish me luck for my results =)!

N95 Died =(.

2008-12-15T02:14:00.001+08:00

After just 1 year and 2 months of using my trusty (no longer) N95 8GB, it suddenly died last Thursday night. The screen just refused to display anything =(. Thankfully, I was still able to connect it to my computer to copy all the contents out.

Anyway, on Friday, I went down to StarHub Tampines to get an InnoV8. Actually it's more of a gift from mum =). So far it's been really good! The build of the Samsung InnoV8 feels solid, compared to most of the N Series, and although I'm having problems installing a lot of software on it, the bundled stuff work well enough for now. I guess it's just a matter of time before some applications get updated for the InnoV8. The build quality's awesome, the camera's superb, and well, it's good =)!

I'm just sad that my N95 decided to abandon me so suddenly. I'll be taking it down to the (usually lousy) Nokia Care Centre later. Hopefully things have improved.

On a different note, with hope, comes expectations, and with that comes... disappointment?

Anyway, the LOML will be ending her exams tomorrow =)! Can't wait to spend time with her (finally)! =P

Random Thoughts

2008-12-10T00:04:00.001+08:00

Sharing your deepest secrets with a person you barely know is definitely one of the ways to form a strong bond between the two of you. Unfortunately, a lot of people mistake this as friendship, and even worse, some people do this knowingly, to make use of you, to fool you into thinking that there's now a special bond between the two of you.

^_^

2008-12-05T04:17:00.001+08:00

I've been planning to buy a Fujitsu T5010 Tablet over the past month, as I felt that my current laptop was simply too slow/unresponsive, especially when I play my mp3s and do my work concurrently. Although I've always suspected it to be a hard disk issue, I also felt that it might be due to the sound card itself. I got this laptop (Compaq C744TU) for a very low price during one of the StarHub deals, and my mum actually bought it for me as a preparation for Uni. Thus, I've also held myself back from buying a new one, and it's quite good to begin with. Unless you're seriously into gaming, which I'm not, the C744TU should suffice for some programming, and everyday tasks.

Anyway, I went to NUS IT CO-OP on Monday, hoping to purchase the Tablet PC. I'm quite disappointed with the service, as one lady told me there were stocks, and another lady came up with some reason as to why she can't sell them to me although there were stocks. I can accept the reason, I can also accept/ignore the fact that she's not honouring her colleagues word, but I can't take her screwed up attitude. I don't want to elaborate too much. Let's just say that it takes a lot for an AUNTIE to piss me off, and even then I didn't lose my temper at her. The worst thing was when I made a phone call later on to confirm when the stocks would be coming, her tone was ridiculously rude.

I always believe that things happen for a reason, and thus, it seemed like I was given more time to do something about my C744TU. Yesterday, I decided to reformat and set up the whole system, but it just kept giving me errors (during installation). I thought it was the CD, so I tried another one, still giving me errors. It was extremely frustrating when I just slipstreamed SP3 into the school's MSDN XP (which is SP2), and I can't install -_-. So I decided to install Vista (which was the original OS with this laptop), and it didn't work as well. I figured it had to be the hard disk, and soon enough, I heard weird sounds from the computer (hard disk).

Thus, I went out today to buy a Seagate Momentus 5400.5 320GB HDD, installed Vista on it, and everything's smooth so far! It seems I might not need to get the tablet PC after all (although I REALLY want to own a tablet). The need just isn't there for now =).

Things always happen for a good reason, you just need to give it time to see the goodness of it. Haha =). Maybe I should thank that attitude-problem auntie.

Back From Desaru Fruit Farm Trip

2008-12-01T18:17:00.001+08:00

Hi all, in case some of you didn't know, or forgot (like DF and Pate), I went to Desaru yesterday morning with my maternal family. I left home around 8.30AM, and then set off to Changi Ferry Terminal, where I took a ferry to Belungkor Ferry Terminal in Malaysia. Once there, there was a minibus that happened to fit all 14 of us. Anyway, ALL pictures are taken with my trusty N95 8GB, as I forgot to bring my digital camera (because I woke up nearly late). Lol.

Even if my friends forget, I don't forget, so here's the FIRST picture I took once I reached Malaysia:

Plate No. Of Minibus

Be thankful it's not 85. I can't believe, even in Malaysia, DF wants to "disturb" me. We went on to Desaru Fruit Farm for an educational tour, and it was interesting to learn many new things =P.

Dragon Fruit! I love eating the white variant of it. The red one looks too weird to be eaten.

Chili Padi. Nothing amazing actually =P.

No idea what it's called in English, it's some banana. Anyway, in Hokkien, they call it "Gong Tao Jiu/Jiao" or something. The tour guide said that this banana is frequently used in black magic. My family members said the same thing.

Papaya Tree.

Thought it looked kind of nice.

Custard Apple

Beautiful fish pond.

With A LOT of Koi. A LOT.

I went on to take some exhibits on their kampong history.

^_^. After that, I went on to:

Take a picture of the Koi pond again!

Just snapping away.

Blackcurrant (I think). You can literally smell Ribena.

Jambu? (Water Apple?)

After seeing a lot of plants, we went on to the mini-zoo section in the Desaru Fruit Farm. You see mostly kampong animals, and there's this cool monkey:

Basically, he snatches away the drinks if you offer it to him, and he drinks it.

Fighting Chicken

After walking around, I went back to the monkey, and caught him drinking with a draw! Unfortunately, by the time I snapped:

He had taken out the straw.

And is once again, drinking.

We then had buffet lunch at the Fruit Farm itself. The food was good, and I saw a lot of Singaporeans. It was also during then that I decided to sms some of my friends about the monkey, because it was really cute. And I got a really nice reply that I'm drunk in the afternoon =(. I also saw one monkey helping another to dig his ear =\. The fruit juice at the fruit farm was NOT good as they all left a bitter aftertaste. Apparently, the skin is part of the fruit juice as well. Imagine just grinding an entire orange (with the skin), and drinking it. It's not that bad, but it's NOT good.

After lunch, we went to our resort, The Pulai.

The room I shared with my grandfather:

My Baby Cousin

We went for dinner around 5PM. Dinner was good! Anyway, after dinner, we went to Sungei Lebam to see fireflies! It was awesome. You sit in a boat (in a river, of course), and by the sides are the trees (which have a lot of fireflies). Managed to catch some in my hands, but of course, released them back into the wild. Some trees look like Christmas trees =P. Unfortunately, my trusty N95 was unable to capture ANYTHING at all in that darkness. However:

The boat (person facing it) we sat on.

That marks the end of Day 1. Educational trip, really fun =P.

For Day 2 (Today), we went to some museum in the morning (can't remember the name), where I snapped some photos:

After the museum trip, we took our bus to Desaru Fruit Farm for lunch:

Different bus. I guess the JLB bus was too dumb to be used.

Appetizer

After lunch, my grandfather, mother, and I were driven to Belungkor Ferry Terminal where we boarded the ferry home, while the rest of my family members went back to The Pulai for one more day!

Throughout the trip, my aunt and her husband were recording almost everything on video, and thus, we didn't take any photos of ourselves, except for one which my mum took of me (at the museum):

I should add that The Pulai has awesome beds. I slept with no problem at all! Haha. It was a short and fun trip =)!

3 Years 4 Months

2008-11-30T02:14:00.001+08:00

Yesterday marks 3 years and 4 months since Geri and I have been together, and it's been a wonderful journey so far =). Just had to say it =P. I love you dear =)! I don't really like the video, but I love the song (and you know it my dear), and I'd like you to listen to it (for the _th time :P):

I'll be back soon! (Will be going to Desaru for 2 days)

It's A Sad World

2008-11-27T10:01:00.001+08:00

http://gizmodo.com/5099383/pop+up-porn-teacher-cops-a-plea-to-escape-jail-time

=(.

1 To Go

2008-11-26T19:01:00.001+08:00

One last paper to go tomorrow. Well, MA1301 was really difficult today =(.

Bullet For My Valentine - All These Things I Hate

Live Version (Embedding Disabled -_-)

Lyrics:

Lyrics | Bullet For My Valentine lyrics - All These Things I Hate lyrics

I just love this song! Especially this: "Torn apart at the seams and my dreams turn to tears, I'm not feeling this situation"

Updated the lyrics with another source, there were errors in the previous one...

2...

2008-11-25T23:33:00.001+08:00

2 more papers to go. Maybe I'll finally know what freedom is. Lol =).

Heaven

2008-11-22T00:33:00.001+08:00

AI loved the song "Heaven", which I always thought was by DJ Sammy. However, after looking for the videos and all on Youtube, I realised that it was sung by Do, but the original version was actually by Bryan Adams! I think all versions of this song are great, but I really love the Bryan Adams one.

Bryan Adams - Heaven

An awesome cover version by The Zoo.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q1NoFk5sVVE

Go watch it, it's really amazing =)! Too bad they disabled embedded videos, so you've to click the above link instead.

First Paper, Saturday, 9AM

2008-11-21T00:04:00.001+08:00

Wish me luck! ^^

Tickle Me Pink - Typical

2008-11-18T01:31:00.001+08:00

Lyrics:

She struts up to me
She whispers my name as if I know her
But I never knew her
She asks me the time
Quarter to one, we go for a drive
I just don't know her

On the coldest night
In the darkest room
I will sleep alone
Cause it's better than you
Yeah it's better than you
You can't play me like that as a matter of fact
You're nothing more than a typical whore
And I wont be your fool anymore

We go to her house
Flip on the tellie and lie on the couch
But I don't feel her...anymore
She asks me to bed
This is the end on my disenchantment
Now that I'm walking out the door

Maybe someday you'll get it
Perhaps you'll regret it
Or maybe you'll find someone else who accepts it
I wont be the one

(You can't play me like that as a matter of fact)
(You can't play me like that as a matter of fact)

Maybe someday you'll get it
Perhaps you'll regret it
Or maybe you'll find someone else who accepts it
I wont be the one

Source: SongMeanings

9 - 4 = 5!

2008-11-18T00:53:00.001+08:00

4 more days to my first paper... 9 more days to my last paper. Many things to do after that. Please, give me the motivation to study hard now so I can enjoy later! =(

Sometimes I feel that at the rate I'm going now, I'm going to throw away everything I've been working so hard for. It's even worse when people think you're joking, seriously.

Also, I hate it when people think I'm lying. But it's ok, I'll just shut up and be nice for now.

Suteki Da Ne (English Translation)

2008-11-15T21:27:00.001+08:00

The wind, like a heart that swam in the accumulated words
The clouds, a voice that was shot into the holding future

The moon, a shaking heart in an unsteady mirror
The stars, gentle tears in an overflowing stream

Isn't it beautiful, to walk together in each others hands
I do so want to go,
To your city, your house, into your arms.

That heart,
held within your body
In those confusing nights
I dream

The wind, its halting words are a gentle illusion
The clouds, the broken future like a distant voice

The moon, a heart flowing in the clouded mirror
The stars, broken and swaying, like tears unable to be hidden.

Isn't it beautiful, to walk together in each others hands
I do so want to go,
To your city, your house, into your arms.

That face,
A soft touch,
Dissolving into morning,
I dream.

Source: lyrics.time

Note: I don't play FF, I just think this song's really nice =).

Avenue Q Is GREAT!

2008-11-15T17:30:00.001+08:00

Avenue Q was great. I highly recommend everyone to catch it! On another note, I wasn't feeling very well, but the show was seriously amazing =)!

I'm so happy that Geri's happy! =P

Very Sad

2008-11-14T04:32:00.001+08:00

I just finished my group project a while ago =(, and now we're having breakfast from McDonald's. Haha. This is nonsense. I just hope I can catch some sleep before going for Avenue Q tomorrow =(.

=)

2008-11-13T01:29:00.001+08:00

Something quite amusing happened yesterday. Basically, a friend of mine, P, was feeling quite sick (runny nose and all). As some of you know, NUS is a smoke-free campus. Of course, some people still find a way to smoke secretly, and someone who did just that happened to come to the area in which P and I was studying at.

Now, imagine, you know NUS is a smoke-free campus, you're having a bad nose, you're frustrated from studying, and to add to that, the smell of cigarettes suddenly fill the air. So P lost his temper in a rather jokingly manner, he was like, "~!@#$% WHICH !@#$%^ SMOKE THEN COME HERE SIA?" (Very Singlish) SURPRISINGLY, the guy who smoked actually replied, "Eh it's me. Pai seh leh brother."

I think the guy was quite nice actually. Anyway, P apologized after that, although it wasn't really his fault. It was really amusing, the whole incident.

Moral of the story: Don't apologise =P.

HAHAHAHA. Also, I know this guy who's on the exchange program. Let's call him A, and he's from Canada. He's a really awesome guy to talk to and hang around with, and he was sharing with my friends and I some interesting things about Canada.

He noticed that Singaporeans don't really voice out their feelings, and then went out to said how, in Canada, people would just say, "This is not what I want." and leave. For example, after ordering food at Burger King, people would just do that.

So he went on to give a very detailed incident. Basically, this girl wanted to get a haircut, so she chose a style she wanted from some magazine, and asked the hairstylist, "I want this hairstyle." So, the hairstylist started cutting her hair and all. At the end of it, the girl just sat there for a long time, looking at her new haircut in the mirror. After a while, she took up the magazine, and told the hairstylist, "This does not look anything like my hairstyle at all!" and walked out of the salon.

Interesting =P.

Smile!

2008-11-11T21:40:00.001+08:00

Dedicated to all my loved ones =).

Sometimes in life you just feel happy, yet confused at the same time, and that is precisely what I'm feeling now. I'm precisely feeling confused, lol. (And no, not Geri, I'm always sure of her =P.)

Anyway, it's kinda cute when your Dad (who's quite computer illiterate) tries to video chat with you on MSN. Haha I love my parents =). Sometimes my Mum will lose her temper because I lose my temper at her for being a real computer newbie, but well, it's always funny when I think about it. I've come to appreciate how wonderful my parents are =).

When everything is done and over, some people will be smiling in the background, although their own wishes might not have been fulfilled, they're nonetheless happy for their friends who have fulfilled theirs. Sadly, some people accept that it's their fate to forever remain in the background. I say, go forward, go and take what is rightfully yours. Happiness is rightfully everyone's. Reach out your hand and grab it. Do you seriously think your friends are all blind people who can't see your sadness? They might not always be able to read you, but true friends are always able to sense that little bit of something that is not right. I'll always be wishing for your happiness.

One more thing, some mistakes can happen over and over again, but there're opportunities that only happen once in your life. How do you know when those opportunities come along? I don't know, either, but I know I've taken some risks before, only to regret. But the ones that I've taken and NOT regret, they're priceless. Sometimes I think these things make life worth living that much more. Words can't describe how thankul and grateful I am for some of these risks that worked out.

I've been doing some self-reflection recently, and I think I like what I see in the mirror. LOL. Alright, seriously, I have. I was on some website the other day, I think it was the Art Of Manliness, and in one of their articles there was a paragraph that said something like, "People nowadays are so busy finding themselves, that they've no time to commit to anyone else." These words jumped right at me. Now I realise why. Perhaps a life is only worth living if it's for the sake of others (BUT ALWAYS HAVE YOUR OWN DREAMS!) Like, for your family, for your friends, for the love (of your life), etc. That way, there's always something to be happy about. Of course, pessimists will say there's always something to be sad about. It's your choice, really. Being happy would not help you achieve anything, neither will being sad. But by being happy you can do things on a more positive note, and maybe, somebody may just fall in love with your smile. Or some close friend might just feel happier because of you. Or, whatever. You get the message.

With that being said, I still find it a constant challenge to smile sometimes. Although most people will think I'm always joking and all, those who're really close to me will know I'm quite far from that actually. I guess we're all hypocrites sometimes. Anyway, I'm not going to let lame and stupid things bother me anymore. Whining doesn't solve any problems at all, although I enjoy whining to, and listening to Geri's whinings sometimes, just for the fun of it. Being with her is simply awesome =).

Perhaps 2 years in army, and the sudden transition to university has made me a rather indifferent person (when it comes to school and social life in general), I don't really care. What I do care, and am affected by, is that sometimes I tend to let these things affect me personally, which in turn affects my loved ones. And that is not going to happen anymore, hopefully.

Again, wishlist, to-do list, whatever, after my exams:

Work out
Catch up with the dearest people to me
Take Geri to some place she really wants to go (at least one of them)
Stop being so lazy
Be a better person
Smile more often

You know what's the best part? I'm actually smiling while typing this entire post. Maybe something in me has changed. Smile, as in, really, smile from your heart, because there's always something worth smiling for. Definitely. There has to be. Screw the facade.

This Is A F*cking Post

2008-11-11T00:49:00.001+08:00

Maybe I should just stop joking around so much so you can see who I really am inside. The jokes are meant to be a facade, because I don't want to take life so seriously. It always brings a smile to my face when I see people laugh, and I think it's better to be known as a fool sometimes. But it really sucks when the people you're close to can't tell if you're joking or not, and it's f*cking pissing me off to no end.

This has happened numerous times already, maybe it's me after all. How can I be my serious self knowing it'd not being any smile to the people I love and care about?

I am f*cking irritated right now. It takes a lot to irritate me to this extent, because only the people I put in high regard can do that. And that's also why it sucks so much. F*ck. Really.

On another note, when I'm feeling negative emotions I tend to see things clearer, write better, and study better. So, I've decided on what to do this coming December:

Work out like f*ck.
Catch up with some people whom I REALLY miss but don't talk about, like Boon Tiong's mum, my HDKs, and my Dad and sister.
Spend more time at home with my mother.
Beg/Borrow/Steal a car to drive around. I love driving around at night and doing nothing else.

And from now till 27th I'm going to study very hard. I'm seriously pissed off with many things right now, and something just had to make me snap, although I know it's not really anyone's fault.

I think in this world there're people who need to feel negative emotions to move on, and I know some of my friends are like that. I also know that I was one of them, and recently I realised maybe I'm still one of them. It's due to conditioning. I love all things dark.

On another note, I'm happy that things sort of worked out. Somehow.

I need to buy a damn punching bag soon, I probably need anger management. I haven't felt so agitated in a while. I think the lack of sleep pisses me off. Then again, it's nice to work out right after you wake up. It makes you energetic.

You know what, I think I'm becoming increasingly distant and cold nowadays. Thankfully not towards the people I care about.

With all that being said, I still love jokes. And I still care about the people I'm pissed at. And I still care about doing well in school. F*ck, if this wasn't a residence, I'd probably be shouting some nonsense profanity to feel better. I want to go to some beach with no one (so others are not affected unnecessarily), and just shout.

Seriously, more than anything else, I'm f*cking pissed off at myself. And I realised that perhaps I still want to believe in some things. Why do my weaknesses keep coming back to eat me? Time to seriously do nothing about it! Because it doesn't matter anymore, because I realised maybe they aren't weaknesses after all. HEHE I am happy now.

"I tried to be someone else, but nothing seems to change, I know now, this is who I really am inside." - The Kill, 30 Seconds To Mars

2008-11-09T23:02:00.002+08:00

Just 14 days to my first paper, and the best part is, I finish all 4 of my papers within 5 days. Go figure. The bad thing, is of course, time is not on my side. The good thing is, exams will be over quickly! Thus, I've decided to focus on studies for the next 2 weeks. The worst thing? I decided that I'll focus on my studies for the next 3 weeks a week ago, but this week was not as productive as I'd like it to be. Better than usual, definitely, but nowhere near where I want to be.

On a BRIGHTER note, I had a good weekend with my beloved girl and my rowdy friends! We're gonna be watching Avenue Q this coming Friday! Actually I don't really care =P, but for the sake of someone
I'm going =X. HEHE. Also, our group had a newcomer this weekend, hope she enjoyed herself ^^.

Also, I'm so happy that Lenovo Mac is going to get a car soon. Woohoo =P!

It's good to have dreams, but it sucks if they just remain dreams forever, you know?

I think love is magical =).

To My Beloved Geri =)

2008-11-09T03:21:00.001+08:00

I love you dearest =)!

2008-11-06T03:09:00.000+08:00

Test

Test post using gnome-blog.

Keep The Fire Burning

2008-11-03T02:14:00.002+08:00

Recently it feels like things are not going smoothly for me (academically), and my morale is really low with regards to school stuff. Nonetheless, I'll find the energy to keep the fire burning somehow. =)

Check out my new geek-related blog by clicking the link to the right of this page!

On another note, I went for Chrystal's (Dearie's best friend) wedding dinner today, and people always look so beautiful when they're in love =). And my dearest looked gorgeous in the pink gown =)!

Put On A Mask And Smile.

2008-10-24T02:20:00.001+08:00

Every day is a struggle between who I really am, who I think I am, and who I think I should be.

There are times I know clearly what's right and wrong, yet I still end up doing otherwise. I hate myself for succumbing to social pressure sometimes, yet I know that it is impossible to fully be myself all the time. That's probably one of my greatest weaknesses.

I long for the day I can just blank people I honestly don't give a damn about, and not wonder if I had just done something wrong. I long for the day I can do a good deed without worrying if others think I've an ulterior motive. Similarly, I'd really like it if I could just help others without wondering if they are simply just using me as a tool. Yes, I know the world doesn't revolve around me. Yet I can't deny that people are not as nice as I would like to believe. Every single day I see people using others and being made used of, the cycle goes on. I guess that's the way life is.

I'm getting increasingly irritated by some people. People who judge you as though they know all about you, people who constantly like to compare themselves against you, people who seem to take pride in condescending you, the list goes on. I love competition. Without it, how can we progress? I love fair and open competition, and that is why I never hide my aims and goals. Maybe that is wrong in this society, whereby everyone acts really nice and humble, but deep down inside them, they're probably rotten to the core, filled with schemes of their own.

And for that, I am thankful for the few groups of friends I've come to regard as brothers. Friends who've been through everything together. Not the kind of bonding I see so often in school. The kind of "Hall Life Rocks", "School Life Rocks", etc. bonding, where everything is so cheer, so colorful, and so fake.

P.S: I miss my double ace! =) And I wrote this post because I was trying to kill some time, nothing more ^^.

I Miss My Dearest =P

2008-10-23T22:14:00.001+08:00

My dearest Geri flew off to Taiwan yesterday (or rather, this morning at 1.25AM), and will be back on Monday, 6pm! I miss her =P! Ok, end of post =X.

Wake-Up Call

2008-10-19T04:10:00.001+08:00

Damn I screwed up one paper =(. Playtime's over for me =(.

Some Software I Use

2008-10-18T03:20:00.002+08:00

Although I've posted some stuff here that's related to Windows, I actually spend about 1/2 the time on a Linux machine as well, either Ubuntu (on my PC and laptop), or Fedora (in school). I actually like the way Ubuntu handles windows, as well as the usage of virtual desktops, and have been some applications running on my Windows setups to try and achieve a similar effect. I don't particular like too much eye-candy, as I prefer function over form, but a little eye-candy never hurts. I'm running Windows XP by the way.

Virtual Desktop Applications:

Shock 4Way 3D - I am currently using this as it works really well. You can configure the eye-candy settings to your liking and all, and can pretty much configure each virtual desktop separately. Sending of windows from one desktop to another is also possible, although you'd have to use the built-in screen manager to do so. I'd liked it more if I could just right-click on an existing window and have some sort of "send to" function. One gripe I have is that this application can take up to 40MB of RAM, which can be an issue for some people. There are various other Shock software on the website, although I haven't tried them.
Virtual Desktop Manager - One of Microsoft's PowerToys. It works, although it is pretty basic. It might be more suited to your needs than the above depending on what you want. Give it a try =).
Desktops - By Sysinternals (now part of Microsoft). I've tried it and it works well, but I still prefer Shock 4Way 3D.

Others:

TaskSwitchXP - A really good Alt-Tab alternative. It makes Alt-Tab more useful by giving much more information =).
Taskbar Shuffle - Ever wanted to re-arrange the order of the taskbar buttons, like how you can re-arrange tabs in Firefox?
allSnap - I love how windows snap to the edge of the screen or to one another in Ubuntu. It just gives a more organized feeling. allSnap provides that function in Windows.

Non-Related:

Dropbox - More of a service than an application, it allows you to store files very easily. Check out the site for more information. The bad: It might not be free once out of beta.

Alright, I guess that's about it =). Hope you find these stuff useful! And...