My 21st Birthday!

Had a wonderful celebration which was really a big surprise for me because I hadn't planned for anything. Thanks to my dearest Geri, Maclean and gang for making it happen, and to all my dear friends who turned up! =) I'll blog more about it another time, but for now, the pictures speak many thousand words.














I have a few more I'd love to post but I've got to rush to book in =(. Another time! Thank you my dear friends and family =).

Update, Finally.

Been a while since I updated. Have been really busy with many things recently, and barely even have time to spend with my friends, family, or Geri. I don't really feel good about this, and it's been a while since I've had any doubts on what I'm doing. Right now I'm wondering if it's worth it to dedicate so much time to what I believe in at the cost of my loved ones, because at the end of it all I might not be able to get the results I want. Some of you might not have any idea what I'm talking about, but some of you do.

Having to take care and be responsible for so many people is not easy. It's something really challenging for me, in spite of being involved in so many activities back in Poly. It's fulfilling when someone comes up to thank you personally, yet disheartening when your men simply don't seem to care. It's painful when you've to deal out punishments, and it's nice to see them smile when you reward them. At the end of the day, I just pray and hope that I've made a positive difference in their lives. I believe in doing things to the best of my ability, either that, or I won't bother doing it at all. I hate 1/2 fuck standards. I'm a perfectionist, although I try my best not to impose that onto others. But many a times this trait of mine has caused me to unknowingly neglect the feelings of others, yet I still keep making the same old mistakes.

Thankfully I'm having off these few days, and although it isn't much of an off for me as I'm still trying to settle some things, nothing beats resting at home right now. I'm so caught up in my stuff that I've forgotten about the things that really matter. Now's the best time to recharge myself, catch up with my dearest ones and ONE =), before returning to work (NS), and giving all I have =). Hopefully.

I didn't even get a chance to be physically there for her on our 2nd year anniversary =(. Sorry dear =(.

Anyway, to Geri, thank you for the wonderful gifts =). I love you! ^^ I'm really happy to see you today after so long! =)

This Blog Is Not Dead.

Celebrated my dearest's 20th birthday yesterday! Thanks to all who came, and all who cared! =P

Lol

Although I don't like this song this video was cute =D.

Lunatica - The Power Of Love

When the first light of morning is touching the leaves
and the dewdrops are sparkling like stars
I feel the touch of a mild breeze caressing my skin
as I'm running to reach your strong arms

[Chorus:]
What greater gift could I get to feel alive
than the power of love in your eyes
Like a blooming rose in a barren place
that must absorb the falling rain
I am longing for your warm embrace

On my way through the forest I can hear a soft voice
But inside my heart it feels strong
It tells me to follow so I don't hesitate
It will lead me to where I belong

[Chorus]

^_^

Celebrity look-alike collage from MyHeritage.com.


Lol. Quite fun =P. Darling introduced it to me. Anyway I've no idea why of my many lookalikes only 2 are guys. The rest are female =(!

Anyway, why can't they say I look like Andy Lau?



=P

Changed Blog Song

Decided to use Imeem.com =).

Within Temptation - Jillian

I’ve been dreaming for so long
To find a meaning t understand
The secret of life
Why am I here to try again?

Will I always, will you always
See the truth when it stares you in the face?
Will I ever, will I never free myself
By breaking these chains?

Chorus:
I’d give my heart, I’d give my soul
I’d turn it back, it’s my fault
Your destiny is forlorn
Have to live till it’s undone
I’d give my heart, I’d give my soul
I’d turn it back and then at last I’ll be on my way

I’ve been living for so long
Many seasons have passed me by
I’ve seen kingdoms through ages
Rise and fall, I’ve seen it all

I’ve seen the horror, I’ve seen the wonders
Happening just in front of my eyes
Will I ever, will I never free myself by making it right?

Repeat chorus

Jillian our dream ended so long ago
All our stories and all our glory I held so dear
We won’t be together
For ever and ever, no more tears
I’ll always be here until the end
Jillian, no more tears…
Jillian, no more tears…

Repeat chorus

Comms Ball... & Others...

Just came back from Comms Ball a few hours, nothing much to blog about. Pretty fun events, although I was a lil bored. Nevertheless it was good to see most of my friends with their sweet dates =). Darling Geri came to find me after her stuff, and it made the difference for the day =). Thank you Dear =)!

Also, LTA Joel and 2LT Aloysius proposed today! It was really really nice and romantic! =) Congrats! ^_^

Anyway, I've learnt recently that double dates and catching up with old friends are not as easy as I thought... Sigh.

To add to that, some of Geri's friends haven't exactly been behaving like good friends. WTF is wrong with people nowadays? They only care about themselves, where's the friendship...? It's so sad, really. If you said you don't mind, then why do you still bring it up? Just STFU and move on, stop whining and wallowing in your sorrows. Should I offer you a tissue as well? Or maybe a towel since you're so full of tears? Knowing things like this piss me off.

Maybe one day I should just listen to the anger inside.

Anyway, for my dearest =)...

Lunatica - Song For You

You hold my hand when I tremble with fear
You bring me light when I burst out in tears
And now I want to thank you, dear, for all the things you've done
I can't deny (that) you showed me the right way

[Chorus:]
For the light, for the love
For the truth in your eyes
I am grateful to have such a friend by my side
For the tears, for the joy
For not asking me why
We can hold our hands up and reach for the sky

You kept your faith when my words were untrue
You made me laugh when I was feeling blue
Always giving, never asking for more than a smile upon my face
Together we will conquer the whole world

[Chorus]

(You) don't have to worry
We'll stay together all of our days
You can trust in my words, you can rely on me
And when dark clouds obscure the sky
I'll be at your side
Until the weight on your shoulders fades away

[Chorus]

Thanks to Greg for introducing Lunatica =P.

Reminiscence =P

Was browsing through some old photos and found some that really brought back memories...





















Don't laugh. =P

More Comms Parade Photos!

65/06 OCC Commissioning Parade!

FINALLY! =)

OneRepublic - Apologize

Changed the blog song =)!

OneRepublic - Apologize

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

Bridge (guitar/piano)

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...

Source: http://www.lyricsdir.com

Rant...

It's been a long time since I actually felt like writing what's on my mind, since most of the time my mind's either completely blank (except for a certain part which is always missing someone =P), or way too messed up with thoughts for me to even start trying to write anything at all, since I can't even put many of these thoughts into words, much less phrases, to begin with.

So why am I writing now? I don't know, and my mind's currently full of thoughts, and I'm just spouting out whatever I can before I lose the ability to properly convert my thoughts to words.

OCS, Professional Term has finally ended. Joint Term here I come! I'm really happy that it's over, but at the same time, sad and a little anxious. After Joint Term, what lies ahead? Where will I be posted to? So many questions but no answers. Anyway, I don't really worry, I simply wonder from time to time. More importantly, I want to write about a very important lesson I learnt, and credit goes to my wonderful section instructor, for his effort and understanding. It's truly something that made something in me feel something, and this something is guilt, and I feel like crap honestly.

You know sometimes in life, you'll come across people who you can't along with. Heck, you come across people who cross your paths almost all the time. In my platoon, there's this one guy whom everyone doesn't like, including myself. Why? Because he has no initiative, he's lazy, self-centred, and simply refuses to help. That's my judgement of him anyway. Thus, for the first peer appraisal, most of us rated him very poorly. Yet he didn't change. Naturally, people will get pissed off, and our opinion of him naturally worsened. Thus, for the second peer appraisal, he was rated very poorly again. I think, as a result of that, he got sent to PRB, also known as Performance Review Board. Basically it's something that could result in him getting OOC (Out Of Course). Anyway, my section instructor came and talked to the entire platoon about it. I truly respect him for doing so. He said we should leave the platoon with happy memories, and not memories of who's fucked up and whatnots, that we should all thrash things out.

Then he said some things which really made sense. He asked, "When you all did the peer appraisal, did you all do it with the intention of helping him, or with the intention of bringing him down?" For me, it was a little of both. Yes, I wanted to bring him down, yet at the same time I hoped that he would change. I'm ashamed of myself for even thinking of bringing him down to begin with. My section instructor also asked, "Did any of you bothered to step up to him and tell him his faults?" To which, my answer is no. Yes, many a times I've tried hinting to him, but I've never talked to him directly about it. You see, many a times when we started having an opinion of something, we turn completely blind to his positive points. We make judgements on others as though we ourselves are the epitome of perfection, as though we are all and they are not. No, I'm not saying that the guy's not wrong at all, I'm saying most of the time we're all wrong. Wrong in the way we handle things, wrong in the way we judge people, and more importantly, wrong in the way we look at ourselves. Anyway, to cut the long story short, yes, some people are screwed up beyond hope, but we can only come to such a conclusion after making an effort to correct them. We should not gather as a group to go against someone just for the sake of it.

There you have it. We're all as flawed as the person you dislike. Just flawed in a different way. But still flawed.

On to another topic, I'm really thankful for such a wonderful and sweet girlfriend =). Just had to say that out =P!

Last but not least, I'm going for an interview this coming Tuesday. Please wish me all the best! =)

A Shoulder To Cry On... Knock It Down! =P

Dedicated to all the NSFs =P:

Knock It Down


For Geri ^^:

Tommy Page - A Shoulder To Cry On

Life is full of lots of up and downs,
but the distance feels further,
when it's headed for the ground,
and there's nothing more painful,
than to let your feeling take,
you down.

It's so hard to know,
the way you feel inside,
when there's many thoughts,
and feeling that you hide,
but you might feel better,
if you let me walk with you,
by your side,

And when you need,
A shoulder to cry on,
when you need,
a friend to rely on,
and when the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone,
cause i'll be there,
i'll be your shoulder to cry on,
i'll be there,
i'll be your friend to rely on,
when the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone cause i'll be there,

All of the times,
when everything is wrong,
and you're feeling like,
there's no use going on,
you can't give it up,
i'll help you work it out,
and carry on,

Side by side,
with you till the end,
i'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand,
no matter what there said or done,
our love will always continue on,

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on,
everyone needs a friend to rely on,
when the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone,
cause i'll be there,
i'll be your shoulder to cry on,
i'll be there,
i'll be your friend to rely on,
when the whole world is gone
you won't be alone,
cause i'll be there,
you have my shoulder to cry on,
i'll be there
i'll be the one to rely on,
when the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone,
cause i'll be there,

And when the whole world is gone,
you always have my shoulder to cry on.

Source: http://www.sing365.com

Cool Couple =D

^_^. On another note, NS life hasn't been very good for me recently... =(.

Fun Nite With My Dearest Friends

Went to East Coast Park with Geri, Mac, Greg, Rayhan, Amir and Raj. Everyone brought some food, and I brought my beloved bunsen burner and mess tins for cooking/heating up some food. I brought canned tuna, canned curry, and some instant noodles. Rayhan brought lots of tidbits, while Amir brought instant noodles and soft drinks. Mac, Greg and Raj essentially brought the same things as me and some soft drinks.

Anyway, it's really relaxing and fun just sitting around a table and cooking and basically chatting away. It's really nice to be with your good friends =).


Me, Amir, Rayhan


Darling Geri!


Bunsen Burner =P


Amir Enjoying His Noodles


Rayhan's Turn


Me Trying Really Hard To Use The Can Opener -_-


Darling & Me!


Almost Everyone!


Amir & Me


Raj & Mac =P


Food!


Having A Good Time =)


Piggyback ^^


Winner: Geri, Loser: Mac =P

Alright, that's enough pics ^_^. Good night!

Take A Step Back...

Sometimes in life it's better to take a step back and think about what you've been doing. If you just keep going in the same direction all the time, you might have miss out on the various trails to the left and right that might mean a lot to your life. Life's about the journey, not the destination. Setting and getting your goals is one thing, but what's the point if you reach them, but lose yourself along the way?

Just take a step back, maybe ten steps back. Heck, you can even walk back to your starting point. It's never too late. I've been blog-hopping and reading so many posts about people not knowing what's wrong with them, about them being in a dilemma, about them not knowing what they want anymore. Come on, what's the rush in life? Just take your time, move a step at a time, always knowing who you really are inside, and knowing where you're going. If you're lost and you keep going ahead, you're going to drag those following you into your crap and end up hurting them. Don't do it. Anyway, here's some food for thought:

The Zen Of Attraction - Thomas Leonard
1. Promise nothing. Just do what you most enjoy doing.
2. Sign nothing. Just do what doesn't require a signature of any kind.
3. Offer nothing. Just share what you have with those who express an interest.
4. Expect nothing. Just enjoy what you already have; it's plenty.
5. Need nothing. Just build up your reserves and your needs will disappear.
6. Create nothing. Just respond well to what comes to you.
7. Seduce no one. Just enjoy them.
8. Adrenalize nothing. Just add value and get excited about that.
9. Hype nothing. Just let quality sell by itself.
10. Fix nothing. Just heal yourself.
11. Plan nothing. Just take the path of least resistance.
12. Learn nothing. Just let your body absorb it all on your behalf.
13. Become no one. Just be more of yourself.
14. Change nothing. Just tell the truth and things will change by themselves.

Good night =).

JCC Fail + Others

Hi all, I came back from Brunei on the 21st, and sadly didn't pass JCC. Nevertheless the lessons learnt were numerous and priceless, and I shan't blog about them as they're boring life philosophical crap to you =P.

Anyway, yesterday was my 1 year and 9 months with Geri Darling =)! Happy boy =P.

Countdown... =(

Hi all, in just 8 hours or so I'll be in Changi Airport, waiting for my flight to Brunei. Time really flies when you're having fun. It's been a wonderful past 5 days (starting from Saturday), spending time with my dearest Geri, and also trying to catch up with my friends. I'm really hoping to do well in Brunei, and come back 16 days later filled with pride and a sense of achievement. Got to try my best =).

Sometimes in life it's not whether you want to or not, it's more like you don't have a damn choice... =(.

Anyway, take good care of yourselves, I'll be back =)!

Off To Brunei + New Layout + STREETS OF RAGE!

Hi all, as you can see I now have a new layout. Well, not exactly new, the colour scheme's still the same, just a little different. Why is this so? Basically I decided to try out Blogger's new Layouts, instead of using the old template/classic format. As a result I had to re-do everything. To be honest I didn't put in as much effort as I would like to, but I kinda like how everything is. Check out the Video reel to the side =P. Alright, that's all for site-related updates.

On another note, I'm flying off to Brunei tomorrow already. Wish me all the best. Stupid jungle here I come =(. I'm going to miss all of you! Especially my dearest Geri =P! I'll be back on the 21st! No idea how much weight I'm going to lose during the survive training =(. Bah.

Also, for those of you who LOVED the STREETS OF RAGE series on Sega, check out this site =)! It's really fun!

Last but not least, please take good care of yourselves, especially my dearest and closest friends =). My darling too! =P I'm going to miss you all =(.

Colorgenics Test

My dearest Geri has been asking me to do this, so yup I've done it =). It's quite true, surprisingly =|.

You feel worn out, physically and mentally. Recently the going has been tough and it looks as if there is still a considerable way for you to go before you can see the light at the end of the tunnel. If only you could put a protecting wall around yourself and cut yourself off from the rest of the world - be it even for only a little while - how wonderful it would be, but you can't - so you need to bear with it. Just when everything will seem at its lowest ebb you will find that there is a turnabout and your problems will seem to find a way of resolving themselves.

You are willing to try anything once. You 'need to be needed' and what is perhaps more important you 'need to need.' You can only feel close to a person or persons when you feel you can trust them, but this trust needs to be proven to you.

Circumstances are holding you back, forcing you to back off and to forgo all the pleasures, fun and games for the time being. But this is only a temporary situation and before you even know it the situation could change.

You are experiencing considerable stress which is essentially the result of on going rejection and hostility. You are in the unpleasant position where offers of trust, affection and understanding are being withheld and you are being treaded with a degrading lack of consideration. You feel that you are being denied the appreciation that you deserve, which is essential to your well-being and self-esteem, but you have to face up to the situation because as matters stand at this time there is little that you can do about it - you feel that you are getting nowhere and the continuous struggle is a lonely one: all difficulties and no encouragement. Whatever you try to say or do is met with continuous hostility and no matter how much you protest you are consistently misunderstood. You need to escape from the situation but you are so perplexed that you cannot find the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.

You wish to safeguard yourself against criticism or conflict and to embed yourself in a protected situation. You are a difficult person to relate to and very difficult to please.

HAHAHAHA

Finally an update! I realised my previous host closed my account, and all the images and whatnots were gone. Anyway, they're back up, and are current hosted on http://sites.canoop.com/. It's damned good for a free service =)! While fixing all these (thank goodness I've backed up my site using WinHTTrack before), I came across some old pictures and whatnots which I might post up tomorrow or something if I'm free =). Also, I changed the blog song/music (finally!). Last but not least, I'll be leaving for Brunei soon for training, so please wish me good luck! =P

All-American Rejects - It Ends Tonight

Your subtleties, they strangle me
I can't explain myself at all
And all that wants and all that needs
I don't want to need at all

The walls are breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave alone
A weight is lifted on this evening
I give the final blow
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, it ends tonight

A falling star, at least I fall alone
I can't explain what you can't explain
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls are breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you left me alone
A weight is lifted on this evening
I give the final blow
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight, it ends tonight

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than bein' on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, it ends tonight
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight, it ends when...

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, it ends tonight
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight, it ends tonight, tonight, insight
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight

Source: http://www.songmeanings.net

Update!

Hi all, I'm going overseas soon, and I'm really going to miss a lot of you guys =(. Take care everyone! I know it's been a while since I blogged but I barely have time =(. Good night!

Update!

Hi all, been a while since I posted. Anyway, I've completed my service term in OCS, and am moving on to professional term. I've always wanted to go to Signals, partially because people always say it's more relaxed, but more importantly, because I'm interested in communications and whatnots. Sadly, I got posted to Infantry, and will be in Alpha Wing for my professional term. There's many stories about Alpha Wing, so I really hope I'll survive there for the next 5 months or so =\.

Anyway, I'm returning back to camp on Tuesday, have to be ready by 0700 =(. I've to really fully enjoy myself these few days, because I doubt there'll be any such breaks for some time to come. I heard from Terry that Mr Clement Chew is now a father ^^!

Time really flies. Just this time last year I was busy making X'Mas cards for people. But this time round I barely feel like I've time to rest. I really don't want to miss this break!

Anyway, wishing all of you a Merry Christmas! And a Happy New Year! =)

UM1s!

Been feeling very uneasy these 2 days, for no apparent reason at all =(. Anyway, I finally bought the Westone UM1s, and they're really good earphones! Approximately 1.5 day more before I book-in again =(.

Watched Death Note today with Geri Dear =) and Greg. Pretty cool movie! I finished reading the manga quite some time ago, but nevertheless, I still enjoy the movie thoroughly (although I knew what was going to happen here and there). Anyway, before watching the movie, I met Mac, Jeremy, Raj, Nick, and Greg =). We went to Raj's house for some Deepavali lunch or something. It was quite fun seeing all of them again =)!

Rest In Peace, Mr Vic... =(

To all my friends who was with me in TP, and have worked in various events, I'm sure you all know who Mr Vic is. The ponytail cool, Mr. Nice Guy lecturer, who helped me out a lot during one or two of my events. Although I was never taught by him personally, working with him during just that one or two events was great. He's the steady and cool type, and gets things done fast. Really friendly too =)! I just heard from Terry the sad news... =(.

Voices

Hello all, it's been a while since I updated. Anyway, I booked out already 9am this morning, and will be booking in at 8pm later... =(. Tomorrow's field camp till Thursday, bah. Training's pretty fun, and I enjoy myself quite a bit training wise =). People wise, it's another story altogether. Don't want to write about it now, but there's some pretty nasty characters... Well =(. Thankfully there're also really nice people =D. Hope all my friends are doing well... =). Greg's also having his BMT field camp right now, might see him in Tekong =P!

Anyway, SAOSIN's debut album's out... Check out "Voices"!

Back To Training

Alright, block leave officially ends today =(. I got posted to OCS, so I'll be reporting to SAFTI MI between 0700 to 0800 tomorrow. Wish me all the best alright? =) Hopefully I'll endure this 9 months... =\. I'm feeling both happy and sad (for many reasons) at the same time, but well, for now, I just want to do my best =).

Anyway, it was a wonderful block leave! I'm going to miss my friends, family, and Geri so much =(!

Take care, everyone =)!