What Is Freedom Even Like?

20070926

:(

I was supposed to be out with Geri right now, probably around town area or something, but here I am, at home... To be honest I'm quite worried. Around 10am this morning, she experienced very bad stomach cramps/aches, and it didn't help that her employer was overly professional, without the slightest tinge of compassion. Anyway, she went on to the clinic, where she waited for a while, and I went to bring her home around 1pm. She stayed at my house till 3pm or so, and seemed to be getting better.

Right now she seems ok, but the doctor earlier said it could be appendicitis, although she got diagnosed with intestinal infection. Hopefully the pain subsides and she's fully recovered by tomorrow. I'm probably over-worrying, but please wish her well. Thanks =).

On another note, I went to Bedok Polyclinic today at 4pm or something, as I have been coughing for the past 3 weeks already. The place sucks. The doctor thought I wanted to have an MC so I didn't have to go back to camp (NS), and kept asking if I wanted him to write an MC. I told him I'm on off, and I didn't need his MC anyway. He went on to say funny things, like don't push yourself too hard for NS, and kept asking me to hurry up. Anyway, I got a little pissed off, and told him all I want to do and know is why the shit I've been coughing for the past 3 weeks, especially in the morning and at night. He then said some medical terms, and asked me to go for an X-Ray. In the end, he gave me some antibiotics and some medicine, and I'll probably go for an X-Ray if I don't recover in another week or so. I also saw many secondary school kids, probably taking MC to skip lessons. With doctors like that, it's no wonder that students LOVE the polyclinic. First question when you step in, "You want MC?"

Absolutely nonsense...

20070921

Updates =)

Hi all, as I blogged earlier, I had a really wonderful birthday. It's been quite a while since then, and I still remember it clearly. Basically, I had no plans at all for that day. I had just finished my duties in camp, and decided to just go home, take a nap, and then take Geri out for the night for dinner. Surprisingly, Kelvin decided to call me and told me that he'll see me tonight at Hougang. I was like, "Huh?" He went, "You don't know?"

So he probably spoilt the surprise a little =P. Anyway, I asked Geri, and she told me that we'll be having dinner at some restaurant that's very cosy. I figured that Mac and the rest, together with Kelvin and the HDKs will be there. Nevertheless, I wasn't prepared for what I saw. Since it's a cosy restaurant, I decided to dress up a little.

I had a little nap till around 5 or so, then Geri and I took a cab down to Hougang. No, it wasn't a cosy restaurant! It was those HDB BBQ pits =P! Anyway, true enough, I saw Kelvin, Mac and all of them. I also saw my Dad. Then my Mum and my relatives. Even Alan came! I was really shocked =P. *Eyes Wide In Shock*

Anyway, I had a good time, and after the whole BBQ thing, Maclean and friends and myself went down to Lighthouse at Boat Quay, where we chilled out for the night.

All in all, it's really nice to know you've great friends and a wonderful girlfriend who planned all these. It was one of the best birthdays I've had! =) So to my dearest friends, family, AND GIRLFRIEND, thank you! =)

On to another topic, the blog song has been changed.

Boys Like Girls - Holiday

When I was younger I used to be wild
As wild as an elephant's child
No one could hold me down
No one could keep me around
Now it's your turn, take a shot
Baby, show me everything that you got
Maybe you can keep me alive
Maybe you can get in my mind
But it's only a matter of time

Before I run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday

My father, he was always wise
As wise as an elephant's eyes
He couldn't hold me down
He couldn't keep me around
So are you gonna take your shot?
It's the only one that you got
Maybe I'll go out on a limb
Maybe I'll jump in for a swim
When the lights go dim

You know I'll run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday
(Need to take a holiday)

A new start
I've broken too many hearts
And I don't have any clue where to go
I don't know
But maybe I'll be back someday after my holiday

When I was younger I used to be wild
As wild as an elephant's child
And I don't think I'll ever change
I think I'm gonna stay the same

I'll run far away
I need to take a holiday (Need to take a holiday)
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase (Set off on a new chase)
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday

(Start)
I've broken too many hearts
And I don't have any clue where to go
I don't know
But maybe I'll be back someday after my holiday)

All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight

Source: SongMeanings

20070911

More Pics!

20070909

My 21st Birthday!

Had a wonderful celebration which was really a big surprise for me because I hadn't planned for anything. Thanks to my dearest Geri, Maclean and gang for making it happen, and to all my dear friends who turned up! =) I'll blog more about it another time, but for now, the pictures speak many thousand words.

I have a few more I'd love to post but I've got to rush to book in =(. Another time! Thank you my dear friends and family =).

20070803

Update, Finally.

Been a while since I updated. Have been really busy with many things recently, and barely even have time to spend with my friends, family, or Geri. I don't really feel good about this, and it's been a while since I've had any doubts on what I'm doing. Right now I'm wondering if it's worth it to dedicate so much time to what I believe in at the cost of my loved ones, because at the end of it all I might not be able to get the results I want. Some of you might not have any idea what I'm talking about, but some of you do.

Having to take care and be responsible for so many people is not easy. It's something really challenging for me, in spite of being involved in so many activities back in Poly. It's fulfilling when someone comes up to thank you personally, yet disheartening when your men simply don't seem to care. It's painful when you've to deal out punishments, and it's nice to see them smile when you reward them. At the end of the day, I just pray and hope that I've made a positive difference in their lives. I believe in doing things to the best of my ability, either that, or I won't bother doing it at all. I hate 1/2 fuck standards. I'm a perfectionist, although I try my best not to impose that onto others. But many a times this trait of mine has caused me to unknowingly neglect the feelings of others, yet I still keep making the same old mistakes.

Thankfully I'm having off these few days, and although it isn't much of an off for me as I'm still trying to settle some things, nothing beats resting at home right now. I'm so caught up in my stuff that I've forgotten about the things that really matter. Now's the best time to recharge myself, catch up with my dearest ones and ONE =), before returning to work (NS), and giving all I have =). Hopefully.

I didn't even get a chance to be physically there for her on our 2nd year anniversary =(. Sorry dear =(.

Anyway, to Geri, thank you for the wonderful gifts =). I love you! ^^ I'm really happy to see you today after so long! =)

20070722

This Blog Is Not Dead.

Celebrated my dearest's 20th birthday yesterday! Thanks to all who came, and all who cared! =P

20070701

Lol

Although I don't like this song this video was cute =D.

20070623

Lunatica - The Power Of Love

When the first light of morning is touching the leaves
and the dewdrops are sparkling like stars
I feel the touch of a mild breeze caressing my skin
as I'm running to reach your strong arms

[Chorus:]
What greater gift could I get to feel alive
than the power of love in your eyes
Like a blooming rose in a barren place
that must absorb the falling rain
I am longing for your warm embrace

On my way through the forest I can hear a soft voice
But inside my heart it feels strong
It tells me to follow so I don't hesitate
It will lead me to where I belong

[Chorus]

20070622

^_^

Celebrity look-alike collage from MyHeritage.com.

Lol. Quite fun =P. Darling introduced it to me. Anyway I've no idea why of my many lookalikes only 2 are guys. The rest are female =(!

Anyway, why can't they say I look like Andy Lau?

20070617

Changed Blog Song

Decided to use Imeem.com =).

Within Temptation - Jillian

I’ve been dreaming for so long
To find a meaning t understand
The secret of life
Why am I here to try again?

Will I always, will you always
See the truth when it stares you in the face?
Will I ever, will I never free myself
By breaking these chains?

Chorus:
I’d give my heart, I’d give my soul
I’d turn it back, it’s my fault
Your destiny is forlorn
Have to live till it’s undone
I’d give my heart, I’d give my soul
I’d turn it back and then at last I’ll be on my way

I’ve been living for so long
Many seasons have passed me by
I’ve seen kingdoms through ages
Rise and fall, I’ve seen it all

I’ve seen the horror, I’ve seen the wonders
Happening just in front of my eyes
Will I ever, will I never free myself by making it right?

Repeat chorus

Jillian our dream ended so long ago
All our stories and all our glory I held so dear
We won’t be together
For ever and ever, no more tears
I’ll always be here until the end
Jillian, no more tears…
Jillian, no more tears…

Repeat chorus

Comms Ball... & Others...

Just came back from Comms Ball a few hours, nothing much to blog about. Pretty fun events, although I was a lil bored. Nevertheless it was good to see most of my friends with their sweet dates =). Darling Geri came to find me after her stuff, and it made the difference for the day =). Thank you Dear =)!

Also, LTA Joel and 2LT Aloysius proposed today! It was really really nice and romantic! =) Congrats! ^_^

Anyway, I've learnt recently that double dates and catching up with old friends are not as easy as I thought... Sigh.

To add to that, some of Geri's friends haven't exactly been behaving like good friends. WTF is wrong with people nowadays? They only care about themselves, where's the friendship...? It's so sad, really. If you said you don't mind, then why do you still bring it up? Just STFU and move on, stop whining and wallowing in your sorrows. Should I offer you a tissue as well? Or maybe a towel since you're so full of tears? Knowing things like this piss me off.

Maybe one day I should just listen to the anger inside.

Anyway, for my dearest =)...

Lunatica - Song For You

You hold my hand when I tremble with fear
You bring me light when I burst out in tears
And now I want to thank you, dear, for all the things you've done
I can't deny (that) you showed me the right way

[Chorus:]
For the light, for the love
For the truth in your eyes
I am grateful to have such a friend by my side
For the tears, for the joy
For not asking me why
We can hold our hands up and reach for the sky

You kept your faith when my words were untrue
You made me laugh when I was feeling blue
Always giving, never asking for more than a smile upon my face
Together we will conquer the whole world

[Chorus]

(You) don't have to worry
We'll stay together all of our days
You can trust in my words, you can rely on me
And when dark clouds obscure the sky
I'll be at your side
Until the weight on your shoulders fades away

[Chorus]

Thanks to Greg for introducing Lunatica =P.