I'm feeling so lost recently. I'm not exactly studying hard, but I'm not playing hard either! I can't really enjoy myself either, due to the fact that I know I should be studying. Sigh, the mood/kick/drive to study is simply not there. Shit. This feeling of neither being here nor there sucks.

As a result of doing nothing productive, my mind has been wandering non-stop. Anyway, I realised that in spite of my achievements over the past few years, I never did feel completely satisfied. I now know why. Maybe my personality is in constant conflict with my character, I am constantly in conflict with me.