First Week Of School, Etc.

First week of school is over! Still need to get used to it, studying sucks =(.

Two of my closest friends are currently recovering from their broken relationships. It kind of sucks when you can't really help them, as it's their own battle to fight. All you can do is listen to them, and try to empathize with them. Some of you are probably thinking, "Just stop whining and get over it." and I fully agree. However, things are often easier said than done.

Anyway, I hope they find their way out of their hell soon =). Time heals everything, definitely. Sometimes when you cling on to the past, you lose sight of the wonder in front of you. You already know it, why carry on this way?

Had a good sleep last night! =) Anyway, today was filled with lectures, and my brain's still warming up. Haha, although I've taken Engineering Mathematics before, what I'm learning now feels familiar yet unknown at the same time. Sigh. It's like re-learning everything all over again. Hopefully I can catch up!

I miss home already =(.

First Night In PGP

Hello all, today is officially the first night that I'm sleeping over at my residence, Prince George Park. It's a pretty small room, but I've made it cosy to my liking already =P. Of course, it's not as big as the rooms in some of the halls, but nevertheless, here's some pictures:












A very sweet handmade gift from dearest Geri!

Turbulence

I wish I could write out in words exactly how I feel, but sadly, there's a severe limitation to using language as a form of expression, and some feelings just have no words as equals. Moreover, I feel really uncomfortable blogging about certain personal things.

I had a really tiring week as it was the Freshmen Orientation Week, but nevertheless, I think it was all worth it! I never thought that I'd be enjoying it as much as I am at the end of it, considering how pessimistic I am. I'm thankful to have met certain people, and hopefully, great friendships can come out of it all =)!

Throughout the FOW I realised many things about myself I didn't know previously, probably due to suddenly interacting with strangers again, or maybe because the idle mind is truly the devil's workshop. I realised that the truth is I've been affected/changed by things I thought wouldn't affect me, that the effects of various things get more and more pronounced as time goes by. I realised that I'm not as strong as I thought I am, that I'm still a coward within.

Some things are better left ignored, but the truth is when you ignore it knowingly you never truly do. Ignorance is bliss, but ignoring isn't. It comes back to haunt you, and sometimes when you're feeling happy it just comes back to bring you down, as though you're forever indebted to it. Maybe it's just me, it probably boils down to me being unable to forgive myself, or sometimes others. I wish I could but I'm just a human.

I realised that perhaps a part of me is still desperately trying to find out who I really am, and at the same time, desperately longing for certain things in the past. I've never felt like I belong to this place, so I crack jokes, and try to lighten things up all the time, because that's probably the only way I know. Everyone needs a little magic, a little bit of light(ness) in their lives. I hate the fact that everything's so planned, so scheduled, and so routined. I hate it but yet I've submitted myself to it as well, because it's the only way I know of. Reach towards the things you hate the most, and maybe you might find a way out someday.

Suddenly, it didn't matter how well I did in my poly, or my numerous other academic achievements. They suddenly don't matter at all.

I miss my sister, I miss my parents being together, I miss my younger self when I didn't have to worry about a single thing, and I wish that some things didn't turn out the way they did. It took me years to finally realise all these. When I turn around I still see myself from years ago, desperately trying to find a way out of everything. And today, when I looked in the mirror, I saw him again, still desperately trying to find a way out of everything.

Anyway, it's just a random rant, and to end this post, here are some pictures of my group, STRENGTH, during the FOW! Also, to my dearest Geri, sorry for not spending as much time you and I would've liked during the week, I miss you =)!

Tag???

Doing this after I realised my dearest Geri tagged me (to prove that I love her passionately). I think Mac tagged me too -_-/

1. What are your nicknames?
YC, Soh, Wysie

2. What do you do before bedtime?
Computer, cards, sometimes books? Think of Geri =).

3. How late did you stay up last night and why?
2am, just can't sleep sometimes. The night is always young.

4. What color of shirt are you wearing right now?
Beige.

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
People see me as an extrovert but the truth is I'm an introvert. I find it hard to express myself.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Of course being loved by someone is more blessed, especially when you love that someone too =).

7. Do you trust easily?
Way too easily, despite my mind telling my heart not to.

8. If the person you secretly like is already taken, what would you do?
Give up and move on, and wish them all the best in my heart. Life sucks sometimes after all.

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Yes, the fact that my personal time is basically reduced to nothing. I miss my dearest and friends already.

10. Do you have a good body-image?
I'm not exactly tall, but nevertheless, I work hard on my body. I would like to think yes, although the mirror tells me otherwise =P.

11. Is being tagged fun?
Sort of.

12. What websites do you visit daily?
Everywhere.

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
My dearest Geri, parents, sister, and friends.

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
She's a stupid pui pui =P.

15. What’s the last song that got stuck in your head?
Foreigner - I Want To Know What Love Is

16. What’s your favorite item of clothing?
Any graphic tee with my favourite pair of denim jeans.

17. What's better: to give or to receive?
Giving, I hate to owe others a favour.

18. What's the first thing you notice in people?
For guys, their dressing, and how they carry themselves. For girls, their smile. Nothing beats a genuine smile/laugh =).

19. What items could you not go without during the day?
Handphone, and my pack of c****.

20. What should you be doing right now?
Bathing, and then sleep. I'm so burnt out.

- E N D -

EVERYONE whom I know, please do this if you read it. It'd be my pleasure to read =).

Update

Hello all, it's been forever since I updated, but forever will now end =P. Anyway, just an update on what's been going on in my life since I ORD-ed. I started learning driving on May 21, and as of July 15, I'm officially a qualified driver =)!

Anyway, since June 9 (ORD) till now, I've spent most of the time going for my driving lessons, and exercising. Of course, both of them have paid off well so far, although I'm lacking in discipline to exercise recently again. Nevertheless, I'm still trying my best.

Also, my friends and Geri's friends had a celebration for her 21st birthday on July 20 (a day earlier than her official one), and I hoped she loved it! =)

I recently had a chalet with my wonderful friends, despite the fact that we're all pretty broke. And no, my broke doesn't mean I'm unable to buy the latest whatever, but really b r o k e. Anyway, we managed to pool together a sum of money, and rented a Mitsubishi Lancer for the course of the chalet. It was definitely the slackest chalet I've ever been to, but I'm sure all of us had a good break, although some still had to work during the chalet =(. I personally had a good break! It was like a mini holiday, and with your friends around to talk cock with you, and having the chance to put my driving to practise, what more could I ask for? Oh ya, I would've loved it more if my dearest Geri had come, but she's very busy, so yup =(. I miss you dearest!

Also, yesterday (July 29) is officially 3 years since I got together with her. Words can't express how grateful and lucky I feel to be with a girl as wonderful as herself =). I love you my dearest *hugs*.

Lastly, I'm starting school as of Monday, August 4. Having pretty mixed feelings about it. Sigh. Will blog about it another time. I'd like to end this post by saying that I'm blessed to have great parents, awesome friends, and a wonderful girlfriend, also, that I'm brilliant =P.

Sixx:A.M. - Life Is Beautiful

You can’t quit until you try
You can’t live until you die
You can’t learn to tell the truth
Until you learn to lie

You can’t breathe until you choke
You gotta laugh when you’re the joke
There’s nothing like a funeral to make you feel alive

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

I know some things that you don’t
I’ve done things that you won’t
There’s nothing like a trail of blood
to find your way back home

I was waiting for my hearse
What came next was so much worse
It took a funeral to make me feel alive

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?