20071209

20071125

Life

Watched Enchanted with Geri, Mac, Greg & Girlfriend and Rayhan today. It was a wonderfully sweet and dreamy movie. Happy ending and all. Haha =). Don't you just wish your life was like that? Anyway, it's definitely a movie you should watch with your date.

Life has been generally ok on the whole. Really exhausted from all the crap that's going on at work, but at the end of the day, nothing beats spending a little time (over the phone) with Geri =).

A couple of my close friends are currently going through some relationship issues. No, I don't mean those 2-3 months relationship. We're talking about 4 years, or more. Some have already made the decision to break up, some are on the verge of doing so. Well, my advice to them is to consider if it's worth breaking up, and not do so because they are frustrated or disappointed with/by the other party. Why throw away all the good moments just because of a little trouble? Then again, some problems will probably never be solved, and some things just can't be compromised. All these things happening around me has gotten Geri and I to think as well. Well, I certainly hope that it won't happen to us =).

Sometimes I have this sudden want to keep up with my old friends, regardless of whether I was close to them or not. I just think it'd be good to know how people who were once part of your life are doing. Moreover, it's always good to make a few good friends again. Yet, there are times when I don't see any point in doing so, reason being the truth is no one really cares anyway.

For all of you who are free, please read "Tuesdays With Morrie". It made me reflect on my life. A wonderful, enlightening read =).

I wanted to blog about a lot more but I'm tired already. Damn it.

20071118

...

Some people simply exist to make your life difficult. No matter how hard you remind yourself that he is just a nuisance, you still end up getting affected. At my workplace there is this person who constantly, PURPOSELY, goes against every single thing I say, and it pisses me off to no end. I've tried talking to him and every time he'll just say he was just stating his opinion, etc. I'm perfectly fine with people stating opinions, but it's damn irritating when you, and others, start noticing that he's just plain out to get you.

Weird thing is, it only happens during work. Once off work, he talks to me like nothing happens, and it's always like this. I feel that it's either he's damn fake, or I simply can't click with him. Either way it bothers me from time to time, and I'm trying to slowly accept it (or heck it).

On to another note, today's news had this incident of 2 girls getting attacked by a Caucasian and his female friend. While I do feel for the 2 girls, I'm equally amused by the fact that one of them actually managed to record down the whole thing, while some hero passers-by tried to help. Like, "Hey this is the moment! I can record this whole thing down and then keep it for memory's sake." Or "This is serious blog material!" Honestly, after watching both videos on her blog, I don't particularly think the passers-by reacted in a nice way as well. The gestures, the words used. What the hell? Two wrongs don't make a right, and for goodness sake, stop siding the girl when you've only heard one side of the story. Anyway, just a rant, nothing personal =).

Last but not least, I love the lyrics of the following song:

Avenged Sevenfold - Dear God

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
and all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
when hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Source: http://www.songmeanings.net

20071117

Rant

If your subordinate makes a mistake, as a superior, you'll naturally have to answer for it. I remember one of my instructors once told me, "It's not about doing things right, it's about doing the right things."

Many a times in our quest to do certain jobs, we end up using whatever means to achieve the end, going by the belief "The end justify the means." In the end, many people are affected. Be it in relationships, or work, many people will be affected if we think this way. This in reality is bullshit, because you can't actually get a good product if the raw materials used are bad to begin with. Many people will suffer if people think like that.

And many a times I've tried doing the right things, trying hard, working hard, to make things work, and make things right. Sadly it doesn't always work. People are lazy sometimes, they simply want to get the job done in the shortest time/way possible. There's no sense of pride, no sense of achievement. Then I'll ask myself, "For whom do I work for? Why should I even bother?"

I hate the fact that I can't exactly type out what is happening, due to some reasons, and it's so hard to express myself in this manner. All I know for sure is that I'm feeling exhausted, working my ass off everyday. Sadly, it's something in me. I could never settle for something less than perfect. It's either I do it to the best of my ability, or don't do it at all.

I've learnt a lot over the past few months. I've learnt that it's not always the capable people who are holding high managerial positions. I've learnt that some bosses behave as though the world owes them something, I've learnt that some bosses simply task everything else to others, while they sit down, relax, and shake their legs. I'm just really thankful I've a good boss =).

Anyway, end of the day, someone's got to do the job, somebody's got to take the shit. The question can either be, "Why must it be me?" or "If not me, then who?"

20071116

Nice Phone

I got an N95 8GB recently, and now pictures and reviews of N82 are out everywhere! Do a Google search for N82. The camera seems amazing =). Bah.

20071111

Off Isn't Really Off... And Other Stuff

Yup it's 7.42AM on a Sunday morning, and I'm here blogging. No, I didn't wake up early. I haven't slept from last night. Many things to blog about, but as usual, don't know what to write.

Anyway, I realise that taking off or leave doesn't really make much difference for me anymore. Whether I'm on off or leave, I'm still constantly being asked with regards to work matters. I don't really blame anyone, just that the feeling sucks, not just for myself, but also for the people around me, especially Geri. Sorry dear =(. Thankfully, she's a sweet darling =P.

I've more to write but probably do it another time... =)

20071108

Update... =)

Hi all, it's been a while since I blogged. Honestly, I always feel like there's so much to write, but the moment I start writing, I don't know what to write, or how to start. And right now, I'm facing yet another similar situation, but heck I'm going to write anyway.

I realised that in the midst of being focused on my work, I tend to forget about the more important things in life, such as my loved ones. And the stupid thing is I always regret at the end of the day. Sometimes I'm so engrossed in my work that by the time I done, then I'd realise that it's the end of the day.

And time and again I keep telling myself it's not worth it, it's not worth it. But I still keep doing it. And what's the price of it all? I barely contact my parents while in camp, and recently I haven't been spending much time with Geri. To be honest I think I've been letting her down recently, and I'd like to apologise to her =(.

I don't really know what to write now, just that I'm really thankful to have such wonderful friends and family by my side, and a really great girlfriend =)!

20070926

:(

I was supposed to be out with Geri right now, probably around town area or something, but here I am, at home... To be honest I'm quite worried. Around 10am this morning, she experienced very bad stomach cramps/aches, and it didn't help that her employer was overly professional, without the slightest tinge of compassion. Anyway, she went on to the clinic, where she waited for a while, and I went to bring her home around 1pm. She stayed at my house till 3pm or so, and seemed to be getting better.

Right now she seems ok, but the doctor earlier said it could be appendicitis, although she got diagnosed with intestinal infection. Hopefully the pain subsides and she's fully recovered by tomorrow. I'm probably over-worrying, but please wish her well. Thanks =).

On another note, I went to Bedok Polyclinic today at 4pm or something, as I have been coughing for the past 3 weeks already. The place sucks. The doctor thought I wanted to have an MC so I didn't have to go back to camp (NS), and kept asking if I wanted him to write an MC. I told him I'm on off, and I didn't need his MC anyway. He went on to say funny things, like don't push yourself too hard for NS, and kept asking me to hurry up. Anyway, I got a little pissed off, and told him all I want to do and know is why the shit I've been coughing for the past 3 weeks, especially in the morning and at night. He then said some medical terms, and asked me to go for an X-Ray. In the end, he gave me some antibiotics and some medicine, and I'll probably go for an X-Ray if I don't recover in another week or so. I also saw many secondary school kids, probably taking MC to skip lessons. With doctors like that, it's no wonder that students LOVE the polyclinic. First question when you step in, "You want MC?"

Absolutely nonsense...

20070921

Updates =)

Hi all, as I blogged earlier, I had a really wonderful birthday. It's been quite a while since then, and I still remember it clearly. Basically, I had no plans at all for that day. I had just finished my duties in camp, and decided to just go home, take a nap, and then take Geri out for the night for dinner. Surprisingly, Kelvin decided to call me and told me that he'll see me tonight at Hougang. I was like, "Huh?" He went, "You don't know?"

So he probably spoilt the surprise a little =P. Anyway, I asked Geri, and she told me that we'll be having dinner at some restaurant that's very cosy. I figured that Mac and the rest, together with Kelvin and the HDKs will be there. Nevertheless, I wasn't prepared for what I saw. Since it's a cosy restaurant, I decided to dress up a little.

I had a little nap till around 5 or so, then Geri and I took a cab down to Hougang. No, it wasn't a cosy restaurant! It was those HDB BBQ pits =P! Anyway, true enough, I saw Kelvin, Mac and all of them. I also saw my Dad. Then my Mum and my relatives. Even Alan came! I was really shocked =P. *Eyes Wide In Shock*

Anyway, I had a good time, and after the whole BBQ thing, Maclean and friends and myself went down to Lighthouse at Boat Quay, where we chilled out for the night.

All in all, it's really nice to know you've great friends and a wonderful girlfriend who planned all these. It was one of the best birthdays I've had! =) So to my dearest friends, family, AND GIRLFRIEND, thank you! =)

On to another topic, the blog song has been changed.

Boys Like Girls - Holiday

When I was younger I used to be wild
As wild as an elephant's child
No one could hold me down
No one could keep me around
Now it's your turn, take a shot
Baby, show me everything that you got
Maybe you can keep me alive
Maybe you can get in my mind
But it's only a matter of time

Before I run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday

My father, he was always wise
As wise as an elephant's eyes
He couldn't hold me down
He couldn't keep me around
So are you gonna take your shot?
It's the only one that you got
Maybe I'll go out on a limb
Maybe I'll jump in for a swim
When the lights go dim

You know I'll run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday
(Need to take a holiday)

A new start
I've broken too many hearts
And I don't have any clue where to go
I don't know
But maybe I'll be back someday after my holiday

When I was younger I used to be wild
As wild as an elephant's child
And I don't think I'll ever change
I think I'm gonna stay the same

I'll run far away
I need to take a holiday (Need to take a holiday)
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase (Set off on a new chase)
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday

(Start)
I've broken too many hearts
And I don't have any clue where to go
I don't know
But maybe I'll be back someday after my holiday)

All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight

Source: SongMeanings

20070911

More Pics!











20070909

My 21st Birthday!

Had a wonderful celebration which was really a big surprise for me because I hadn't planned for anything. Thanks to my dearest Geri, Maclean and gang for making it happen, and to all my dear friends who turned up! =) I'll blog more about it another time, but for now, the pictures speak many thousand words.














I have a few more I'd love to post but I've got to rush to book in =(. Another time! Thank you my dear friends and family =).

20070803

Update, Finally.

Been a while since I updated. Have been really busy with many things recently, and barely even have time to spend with my friends, family, or Geri. I don't really feel good about this, and it's been a while since I've had any doubts on what I'm doing. Right now I'm wondering if it's worth it to dedicate so much time to what I believe in at the cost of my loved ones, because at the end of it all I might not be able to get the results I want. Some of you might not have any idea what I'm talking about, but some of you do.

Having to take care and be responsible for so many people is not easy. It's something really challenging for me, in spite of being involved in so many activities back in Poly. It's fulfilling when someone comes up to thank you personally, yet disheartening when your men simply don't seem to care. It's painful when you've to deal out punishments, and it's nice to see them smile when you reward them. At the end of the day, I just pray and hope that I've made a positive difference in their lives. I believe in doing things to the best of my ability, either that, or I won't bother doing it at all. I hate 1/2 fuck standards. I'm a perfectionist, although I try my best not to impose that onto others. But many a times this trait of mine has caused me to unknowingly neglect the feelings of others, yet I still keep making the same old mistakes.

Thankfully I'm having off these few days, and although it isn't much of an off for me as I'm still trying to settle some things, nothing beats resting at home right now. I'm so caught up in my stuff that I've forgotten about the things that really matter. Now's the best time to recharge myself, catch up with my dearest ones and ONE =), before returning to work (NS), and giving all I have =). Hopefully.

I didn't even get a chance to be physically there for her on our 2nd year anniversary =(. Sorry dear =(.

Anyway, to Geri, thank you for the wonderful gifts =). I love you! ^^ I'm really happy to see you today after so long! =)

20070722

This Blog Is Not Dead.

Celebrated my dearest's 20th birthday yesterday! Thanks to all who came, and all who cared! =P

20070701

Lol



Although I don't like this song this video was cute =D.

20070623

Lunatica - The Power Of Love

When the first light of morning is touching the leaves
and the dewdrops are sparkling like stars
I feel the touch of a mild breeze caressing my skin
as I'm running to reach your strong arms

[Chorus:]
What greater gift could I get to feel alive
than the power of love in your eyes
Like a blooming rose in a barren place
that must absorb the falling rain
I am longing for your warm embrace

On my way through the forest I can hear a soft voice
But inside my heart it feels strong
It tells me to follow so I don't hesitate
It will lead me to where I belong

[Chorus]

20070622

^_^






Celebrity look-alike collage from MyHeritage.com.


Lol. Quite fun =P. Darling introduced it to me. Anyway I've no idea why of my many lookalikes only 2 are guys. The rest are female =(!

Anyway, why can't they say I look like Andy Lau?



=P

20070617

Changed Blog Song

Decided to use Imeem.com =).

Within Temptation - Jillian

I’ve been dreaming for so long
To find a meaning t understand
The secret of life
Why am I here to try again?

Will I always, will you always
See the truth when it stares you in the face?
Will I ever, will I never free myself
By breaking these chains?

Chorus:
I’d give my heart, I’d give my soul
I’d turn it back, it’s my fault
Your destiny is forlorn
Have to live till it’s undone
I’d give my heart, I’d give my soul
I’d turn it back and then at last I’ll be on my way

I’ve been living for so long
Many seasons have passed me by
I’ve seen kingdoms through ages
Rise and fall, I’ve seen it all

I’ve seen the horror, I’ve seen the wonders
Happening just in front of my eyes
Will I ever, will I never free myself by making it right?

Repeat chorus

Jillian our dream ended so long ago
All our stories and all our glory I held so dear
We won’t be together
For ever and ever, no more tears
I’ll always be here until the end
Jillian, no more tears…
Jillian, no more tears…

Repeat chorus

Comms Ball... & Others...

Just came back from Comms Ball a few hours, nothing much to blog about. Pretty fun events, although I was a lil bored. Nevertheless it was good to see most of my friends with their sweet dates =). Darling Geri came to find me after her stuff, and it made the difference for the day =). Thank you Dear =)!

Also, LTA Joel and 2LT Aloysius proposed today! It was really really nice and romantic! =) Congrats! ^_^

Anyway, I've learnt recently that double dates and catching up with old friends are not as easy as I thought... Sigh.

To add to that, some of Geri's friends haven't exactly been behaving like good friends. WTF is wrong with people nowadays? They only care about themselves, where's the friendship...? It's so sad, really. If you said you don't mind, then why do you still bring it up? Just STFU and move on, stop whining and wallowing in your sorrows. Should I offer you a tissue as well? Or maybe a towel since you're so full of tears? Knowing things like this piss me off.

Maybe one day I should just listen to the anger inside.

Anyway, for my dearest =)...

Lunatica - Song For You

You hold my hand when I tremble with fear
You bring me light when I burst out in tears
And now I want to thank you, dear, for all the things you've done
I can't deny (that) you showed me the right way

[Chorus:]
For the light, for the love
For the truth in your eyes
I am grateful to have such a friend by my side
For the tears, for the joy
For not asking me why
We can hold our hands up and reach for the sky

You kept your faith when my words were untrue
You made me laugh when I was feeling blue
Always giving, never asking for more than a smile upon my face
Together we will conquer the whole world

[Chorus]

(You) don't have to worry
We'll stay together all of our days
You can trust in my words, you can rely on me
And when dark clouds obscure the sky
I'll be at your side
Until the weight on your shoulders fades away

[Chorus]


Thanks to Greg for introducing Lunatica =P.

20070615

Reminiscence =P

Was browsing through some old photos and found some that really brought back memories...





















Don't laugh. =P

20070610

65/06 OCC Commissioning Parade!























FINALLY! =)