20071125

Life

Watched Enchanted with Geri, Mac, Greg & Girlfriend and Rayhan today. It was a wonderfully sweet and dreamy movie. Happy ending and all. Haha =). Don't you just wish your life was like that? Anyway, it's definitely a movie you should watch with your date.

Life has been generally ok on the whole. Really exhausted from all the crap that's going on at work, but at the end of the day, nothing beats spending a little time (over the phone) with Geri =).

A couple of my close friends are currently going through some relationship issues. No, I don't mean those 2-3 months relationship. We're talking about 4 years, or more. Some have already made the decision to break up, some are on the verge of doing so. Well, my advice to them is to consider if it's worth breaking up, and not do so because they are frustrated or disappointed with/by the other party. Why throw away all the good moments just because of a little trouble? Then again, some problems will probably never be solved, and some things just can't be compromised. All these things happening around me has gotten Geri and I to think as well. Well, I certainly hope that it won't happen to us =).

Sometimes I have this sudden want to keep up with my old friends, regardless of whether I was close to them or not. I just think it'd be good to know how people who were once part of your life are doing. Moreover, it's always good to make a few good friends again. Yet, there are times when I don't see any point in doing so, reason being the truth is no one really cares anyway.

For all of you who are free, please read "Tuesdays With Morrie". It made me reflect on my life. A wonderful, enlightening read =).

I wanted to blog about a lot more but I'm tired already. Damn it.

20071118

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Some people simply exist to make your life difficult. No matter how hard you remind yourself that he is just a nuisance, you still end up getting affected. At my workplace there is this person who constantly, PURPOSELY, goes against every single thing I say, and it pisses me off to no end. I've tried talking to him and every time he'll just say he was just stating his opinion, etc. I'm perfectly fine with people stating opinions, but it's damn irritating when you, and others, start noticing that he's just plain out to get you.

Weird thing is, it only happens during work. Once off work, he talks to me like nothing happens, and it's always like this. I feel that it's either he's damn fake, or I simply can't click with him. Either way it bothers me from time to time, and I'm trying to slowly accept it (or heck it).

On to another note, today's news had this incident of 2 girls getting attacked by a Caucasian and his female friend. While I do feel for the 2 girls, I'm equally amused by the fact that one of them actually managed to record down the whole thing, while some hero passers-by tried to help. Like, "Hey this is the moment! I can record this whole thing down and then keep it for memory's sake." Or "This is serious blog material!" Honestly, after watching both videos on her blog, I don't particularly think the passers-by reacted in a nice way as well. The gestures, the words used. What the hell? Two wrongs don't make a right, and for goodness sake, stop siding the girl when you've only heard one side of the story. Anyway, just a rant, nothing personal =).

Last but not least, I love the lyrics of the following song:

Avenged Sevenfold - Dear God

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
and all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
when hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Source: http://www.songmeanings.net

20071117

Rant

If your subordinate makes a mistake, as a superior, you'll naturally have to answer for it. I remember one of my instructors once told me, "It's not about doing things right, it's about doing the right things."

Many a times in our quest to do certain jobs, we end up using whatever means to achieve the end, going by the belief "The end justify the means." In the end, many people are affected. Be it in relationships, or work, many people will be affected if we think this way. This in reality is bullshit, because you can't actually get a good product if the raw materials used are bad to begin with. Many people will suffer if people think like that.

And many a times I've tried doing the right things, trying hard, working hard, to make things work, and make things right. Sadly it doesn't always work. People are lazy sometimes, they simply want to get the job done in the shortest time/way possible. There's no sense of pride, no sense of achievement. Then I'll ask myself, "For whom do I work for? Why should I even bother?"

I hate the fact that I can't exactly type out what is happening, due to some reasons, and it's so hard to express myself in this manner. All I know for sure is that I'm feeling exhausted, working my ass off everyday. Sadly, it's something in me. I could never settle for something less than perfect. It's either I do it to the best of my ability, or don't do it at all.

I've learnt a lot over the past few months. I've learnt that it's not always the capable people who are holding high managerial positions. I've learnt that some bosses behave as though the world owes them something, I've learnt that some bosses simply task everything else to others, while they sit down, relax, and shake their legs. I'm just really thankful I've a good boss =).

Anyway, end of the day, someone's got to do the job, somebody's got to take the shit. The question can either be, "Why must it be me?" or "If not me, then who?"

20071116

Nice Phone

I got an N95 8GB recently, and now pictures and reviews of N82 are out everywhere! Do a Google search for N82. The camera seems amazing =). Bah.

20071111

Off Isn't Really Off... And Other Stuff

Yup it's 7.42AM on a Sunday morning, and I'm here blogging. No, I didn't wake up early. I haven't slept from last night. Many things to blog about, but as usual, don't know what to write.

Anyway, I realise that taking off or leave doesn't really make much difference for me anymore. Whether I'm on off or leave, I'm still constantly being asked with regards to work matters. I don't really blame anyone, just that the feeling sucks, not just for myself, but also for the people around me, especially Geri. Sorry dear =(. Thankfully, she's a sweet darling =P.

I've more to write but probably do it another time... =)

20071108

Update... =)

Hi all, it's been a while since I blogged. Honestly, I always feel like there's so much to write, but the moment I start writing, I don't know what to write, or how to start. And right now, I'm facing yet another similar situation, but heck I'm going to write anyway.

I realised that in the midst of being focused on my work, I tend to forget about the more important things in life, such as my loved ones. And the stupid thing is I always regret at the end of the day. Sometimes I'm so engrossed in my work that by the time I done, then I'd realise that it's the end of the day.

And time and again I keep telling myself it's not worth it, it's not worth it. But I still keep doing it. And what's the price of it all? I barely contact my parents while in camp, and recently I haven't been spending much time with Geri. To be honest I think I've been letting her down recently, and I'd like to apologise to her =(.

I don't really know what to write now, just that I'm really thankful to have such wonderful friends and family by my side, and a really great girlfriend =)!