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Update =)

I had a good weekend with the perfect girlfriend =). It’s magical, how 3 years and 8 months down the road, it still feels like our first date every single time I meet her. Our relationship feels like a honeymoon that never ends =P. I love you Geri!

I love and enjoy the fact that we talk about almost everything =)!

On another note, it’s amusing and saddening when you talk to an old friend/acquaintance/enemy/classmate/whatever and he or she says stuff like, “You’ve changed.” You know what? If I did, where were you when I was facing all the shit and had to change as a result? Even more irritating are people who have betrayed you coming to talk to you as though nothing ever happened. I feel like a hypocrite talking to them, seriously. I resolve to have the strength to blank these people in future.

I have spent a lot of time reflecting, too much in fact, and I think it’s a waste of time. I look back at my secondary school and polytechnic days, at all my “friends” who conveniently left me when I was truly down. Yet, through these years, I never really blamed them. After all, I wasn’t strong enough. It’s only now that I truly dislike them. Why? Because it’s sad how they come and talk to you like nothing ever happened. Or even worse, they don’t talk to you. They only ask you questions when they need help. Friends?

I remember I used to have a couple of good friends from primary school. We went on to the same secondary school together, and of course, made a whole new lot of friends, and all of us used to be close together. Old friends and new friends alike. Then I started mixing with “bad company”, whom till today, are one of my closest friends, my HDKs. Bad company my ass. At least they are true as friends. What about the whole lot of friends? Well, I’ve no idea till today. For some reason I was outcasted. Rumours are a powerful thing. It’s sad because I thought you all were friends. Obviously I was wrong.

I’m not saying any of these with any grudges. It’s just interesting when I look back at everything that I’ve been through, at who are the people who’ve stood by me, and who are those that did not. After all, without sadness, what is happiness?

And for that reason alone, I am very thankful for some of the friends I have right now. You know who you are. If you’re doubtful then you probably aren’t one of them =). Friends have no need for doubts.

On yet another note, this semester has been going pretty well for me so far. I’m thankful, shall not complain too much =).

Have a good day people =).

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  • Contact lens came out during lecture.
  • Got a headache due to it.
  • Came back, wore a new pair, and went back to school to study.
  • Forgot to have dinner.
  • That’s about it.

Amusing really.

friend: a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard. From Dictionary.com

How true, sadly.

Within Temptation - Frozen

I can't feel my senses
I just feel the cold
All colours seem to fade away
I can't reach my soul

I would stop running
If I knew there was a chance
It tears me apart to sacrifice it all
But I'm forced to let go

Tell me I'm frozen
But what can I do?
Can't tell the reasons
I did it for you

When lies turn into truth
I sacrifice for you
You say that I am frozen
But what can I do?
I can feel your sorrow
(I sacrifice)
You won't forgive me
(...)
But I know you'll be alright
(...)
It tears me apart that you will never know
But I have to let go

Tell me I'm frozen
But what can I do?
Can't tell the reasons
I did it for you

When lies turn into truth
I sacrifice for you
You say that I am frozen
But what can I do?

Everything will slip away
Shattered pieces will remain
When memories fade into emptiness
Only time will tell its tale
If it all has been in vain

I can't feel my senses
I just feel the cold

Frozen
But what can I do?
Frozen

Tell me I'm frozen
But what can I do?
Can't tell the reasons
I did it for you

When lies turn into truth
I sacrifice for you
You say that I am frozen

Frozen

Source: SongMeaning

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Actions Can’t Speak After All

I honestly don’t think the saying “Actions speak louder than words.” hold in today’s world.

Successful people are usually good public speakers. Do they always honour their words? Go figure. I could care less about that.

I’m just amused and disheartened (is that possible?) at the same time that despite what I’ve done for others, their impression of me drastically changes because of some things I said. Well, it doesn’t really matter now.

Learn to speak well, don’t be yourself. I’m sure people will like you more that way.

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Being sick seriously sucks. Last Friday, I had flu. On Saturday, I felt better. On Sunday, I was fine, but while I was out with Geri, I suddenly felt giddy. Had some problems sleeping, and on Monday morning, I was still giddy, so I decided to skip my first lecture to sleep instead. I felt better in the afternoon and evening. Then yesterday, I had flu again, accompanied by his good friend, fever. This is seriously shitty. I'm feeling better today, but not completely good.

The best part? This is one of my busiest week yet, and I am unable to do a single thing because of my stupid health.

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My room’s light is spoilt =(. Just when I wanted to read a book to sleep. What the heck.

Anyway, don’t let your kinkiness take control over your common sense:

http://i.gizmodo.com/5168718/saber-saw-sex-toy-incident-diy-gone-very-very-wrong

While browsing Gizmodo, I came across two very nice videos, check them out here:

http://i.gizmodo.com/5168821/pretending-to-work-video-is-full-of-great-office-tips

http://gizmodo.com/389833/music-video-is-complete-mac-os-x-leopard-tour

Lastly, Geri drew something for me =P:

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2 papers down, 1 to go. Although things haven’t been going well =|. Anyway, more importantly, I miss Geri =(.

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Light Painting, Funny Video (At End)

I recently had a retreat with the FOW Committee, and Edwin introduced something called light painting to us. It was really fun! =)

Mine’s The Top Right One, Green Colour:

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I’m The O:

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I’m The 9:

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My Numerous Attempts At Drawing A Heart:

I Forgot To Switch Off My Torch:

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Tried To Draw A Heart With Eyes, Someone Drew A Pig Behind Me =(.

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Sadly, Someone Drew A Nicer Heart Than Me (Can’t Remember Who):

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My Best Attempt:

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Lastly, LOL: