Hello?

Hello all, been a while. Life’s been quite hectic. I spent the whole of last week trying to finish my diet analysis assignment for one of my modules (GEK1529). The scope/requirements were very vague, and I’ve no idea how much info I should include or not include. Well, in the end I just decided to include as much as I can. I’ve to admit it was a pretty interesting experience. I spent countless hours in the NUS Science Library (first time there!), looking through tables after tables of food composition. On the darker side, I’m behind schedule for almost all my modules now. My time management skills are simply top-notch.

On a brighter note, I decided to finish the next assignment for the module as well, so I can probably ignore this module for a while. Also, it seems most of my assignments are done (ahead of deadline). In fact I think all of them are done, just need to finish up the report, which should not take too long. *hopes someone in the group will do it so i can relax*

Anyway, I watched Funny People yesterday, not a bad show, but not awesome either. Watch it if you’ve a lot of time (it’s 2.5hours). It’s meaningful, but draggy. Also, THIS IS THE SHORTEST WEEKEND I HAVE WITH GERI :(. Ah, well. She got her Doo Doo Milk Biscuit though, lol :D.

I can’t wait for this semester to be over, it feels like the worst one ever (since poly). Lack of focus, lack of results, lack of everything. I don’t even feel like studying. I’d rather spend everyday coding, doing assignments, meeting deadlines, than to revise. They seem to repel me somehow, the lecture notes and the textbooks (and honestly, some of the lecturers too). We need good lecturers, good teachers, not good researchers :(.

I seem to have lost my confidence completely, when it comes to studies. I keep telling myself, I’ll change everything when this semester ends. The fact is, I should just do it now. So stop f-ing around, Mr Wysie :D.

I FEEL MOTIVATED SUDDENLY! (Only for now)

Good night all!

Light Painting, Funny Video (At End)

I recently had a retreat with the FOW Committee, and Edwin introduced something called light painting to us. It was really fun! =)

Mine’s The Top Right One, Green Colour:

I’m The O:

I’m The 9:

My Numerous Attempts At Drawing A Heart:

I Forgot To Switch Off My Torch:

Tried To Draw A Heart With Eyes, Someone Drew A Pig Behind Me =(.

 

Sadly, Someone Drew A Nicer Heart Than Me (Can’t Remember Who):

My Best Attempt:

Lastly, LOL:

9 - 4 = 5!

4 more days to my first paper... 9 more days to my last paper. Many things to do after that. Please, give me the motivation to study hard now so I can enjoy later! =(

Sometimes I feel that at the rate I'm going now, I'm going to throw away everything I've been working so hard for. It's even worse when people think you're joking, seriously.

Also, I hate it when people think I'm lying. But it's ok, I'll just shut up and be nice for now.

Put On A Mask And Smile.

Every day is a struggle between who I really am, who I think I am, and who I think I should be.

There are times I know clearly what's right and wrong, yet I still end up doing otherwise. I hate myself for succumbing to social pressure sometimes, yet I know that it is impossible to fully be myself all the time. That's probably one of my greatest weaknesses.

I long for the day I can just blank people I honestly don't give a damn about, and not wonder if I had just done something wrong. I long for the day I can do a good deed without worrying if others think I've an ulterior motive. Similarly, I'd really like it if I could just help others without wondering if they are simply just using me as a tool. Yes, I know the world doesn't revolve around me. Yet I can't deny that people are not as nice as I would like to believe. Every single day I see people using others and being made used of, the cycle goes on. I guess that's the way life is.

I'm getting increasingly irritated by some people. People who judge you as though they know all about you, people who constantly like to compare themselves against you, people who seem to take pride in condescending you, the list goes on. I love competition. Without it, how can we progress? I love fair and open competition, and that is why I never hide my aims and goals. Maybe that is wrong in this society, whereby everyone acts really nice and humble, but deep down inside them, they're probably rotten to the core, filled with schemes of their own.

And for that, I am thankful for the few groups of friends I've come to regard as brothers. Friends who've been through everything together. Not the kind of bonding I see so often in school. The kind of "Hall Life Rocks", "School Life Rocks", etc. bonding, where everything is so cheer, so colorful, and so fake.

P.S: I miss my double ace! =) And I wrote this post because I was trying to kill some time, nothing more ^^.

Irritated

I was out enjoying myself with my dearest and friends at Sentosa yesterday (Jazz By The Beach). It was pretty much just chilling out and relaxing, which is more or less what I need after a hectic week in school. On the way home, I got a SMS from Percy (one of my SOC friends), asking if I had submitted a particular assignment for the group. I thought it was strange that he'd ask such a question, especially when the deadline is on Friday, so I called him up and told him that I've submitted for our team already. Guess what? For some reason, my team was listed under the "Not Submitted" category in NUS IVLE system.

What the hell? So I've emailed my tutor and lecturer, to clarify things, as well as attach a screenshot of proof that I've submitted. If the marks deduction penalty applies to my team, I've nothing to say. Simple administrative mistakes like this should not be happening. Sigh. All I hope for now is that the penalty will not apply to my team, since it doesn't make sense to being with.