Sometimes as friends we’d expect the other party(ies) to get the message, but the truth is things are seldom this way. If you want the other person to get it, talk to him or her. Actions may speak louder than words, but people will usually take your actions at face value, thus missing what you’re trying to hint altogether. I think it is sad that we’re in a society where people seldom dare to voice out, and it seems worse when it comes to the people close to us. Just take a look at your daily ride in the MRT or bus. When someone leans against the holding pole, you can clearly see on the faces of the other commuters that they are not very pleased over it, especially if they want to hold onto the pole too. Yet, very few people will actually tell the person off. Recently, I learnt that sometimes, words mean a lot more than actions. It sounds stupid, I know. Imagine you’re with a really wonderful partner. You know from his or her actions that he or she truly loves you, but your partner never once says “I love you” to you. How would you feel?
Another thing I often hear people telling me is “Be the change you want to be.” As always, things are easier said than done. Sometimes I see the people who tell me that NOT practising their own advice. We’re sometimes confined to the restrictions of society, to the point that being and doing the things that define you may often end up with you not having a job, or something as naive as having a group of people to hang out with. In that aspect I’d say we are all hypocrites.
This has been one of the worst semester for me, not in terms of results (no idea about that, really), but in terms of how I feel about it. I don’t feel like I’ve learnt much at all, and all I care about is having a break. This semester also reminded me never to depend on others when it comes to your own responsibilities, not even a little. Humans are peculiar beings. We have a habit of doing unpredictable things and letting people down at times when they really need you. I’ve lost count of the number of times this has happened. As they say, in life, when you die with 5 good friends, you’ve had a great life.
It has been a tiring semester not because of school only, but also due to all the other things that have been happening. When I think about it now, I realized many things that I thought didn’t affect me, in actual fact, actually changed my perception towards many things. I’m glad I realized it now, rather than later. I realized as much as I may seem family-oriented, I have never been one to really express, or actually feel it. That’s why, when I get a chance to play with my cousins recently, I actually feel quite happy.
As you grow older there’s this want (need, maybe?) to do more and more things, but at the same time, time seems to be getting shorter and shorter.
We never truly treasure what we have. The richer people I know are always talking about how their lives suck, about unrequited love, about not having enough money to buy a LV bag, the list goes on. On the other hand, I’ve friends who want to do everything that I feel makes life that much more meaningful, but they:
- Can’t do it because they lack the money.
- Can’t do it because they lack the money, and are working very hard just to get by, and as a result, lack the time as well.
I find it amazing and sad at the same time. What if, just for a day, the wealth of the rich whiners goes to the poorer ones. I think it’ll be a happier day for all of them. It would make no difference to the whiners since they will still be complaining anyway, and the people with dreams but no money can fulfill their dreams. It’d actually be good for the richer ones, since they may then see that life is much more than their material wants and sad love stories.
I’ve recently seen a lot of people who are blessed with great kids, but are themselves a curse to this kids. Some people shouldn’t be parents. With all of my flaws, including my supposedly bad temper, I think I’d still make a better parent, at least in terms of emotional support. I’m not a parent but I’ve got wonderful parents who do not send me for every damn course they FEEL I should join, or lose their temper at me for doing badly at a test.
I think this is going to be the last post for a while. My exams are coming up in approximately 3 weeks, and being the leader of tomorrow that I always am, I am completely unprepared. Starting right now, I’m going to study. The whole of next week will be dedicated to Math. Have yet to plan out a full timetable, intending to do one soon. In fact, I was reading my Cryptography textbook when I decided to blog.
Well, at the end of the day, this is just another blog post. Good night.