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My 21st Birthday!

Had a wonderful celebration which was really a big surprise for me because I hadn't planned for anything. Thanks to my dearest Geri, Maclean and gang for making it happen, and to all my dear friends who turned up! =) I'll blog more about it another time, but for now, the pictures speak many thousand words.














I have a few more I'd love to post but I've got to rush to book in =(. Another time! Thank you my dear friends and family =).

Update, Finally.

Been a while since I updated. Have been really busy with many things recently, and barely even have time to spend with my friends, family, or Geri. I don't really feel good about this, and it's been a while since I've had any doubts on what I'm doing. Right now I'm wondering if it's worth it to dedicate so much time to what I believe in at the cost of my loved ones, because at the end of it all I might not be able to get the results I want. Some of you might not have any idea what I'm talking about, but some of you do.

Having to take care and be responsible for so many people is not easy. It's something really challenging for me, in spite of being involved in so many activities back in Poly. It's fulfilling when someone comes up to thank you personally, yet disheartening when your men simply don't seem to care. It's painful when you've to deal out punishments, and it's nice to see them smile when you reward them. At the end of the day, I just pray and hope that I've made a positive difference in their lives. I believe in doing things to the best of my ability, either that, or I won't bother doing it at all. I hate 1/2 fuck standards. I'm a perfectionist, although I try my best not to impose that onto others. But many a times this trait of mine has caused me to unknowingly neglect the feelings of others, yet I still keep making the same old mistakes.

Thankfully I'm having off these few days, and although it isn't much of an off for me as I'm still trying to settle some things, nothing beats resting at home right now. I'm so caught up in my stuff that I've forgotten about the things that really matter. Now's the best time to recharge myself, catch up with my dearest ones and ONE =), before returning to work (NS), and giving all I have =). Hopefully.

I didn't even get a chance to be physically there for her on our 2nd year anniversary =(. Sorry dear =(.

Anyway, to Geri, thank you for the wonderful gifts =). I love you! ^^ I'm really happy to see you today after so long! =)

This Blog Is Not Dead.

Celebrated my dearest's 20th birthday yesterday! Thanks to all who came, and all who cared! =P

Lol

Although I don't like this song this video was cute =D.

Lunatica - The Power Of Love

When the first light of morning is touching the leaves
and the dewdrops are sparkling like stars
I feel the touch of a mild breeze caressing my skin
as I'm running to reach your strong arms

[Chorus:]
What greater gift could I get to feel alive
than the power of love in your eyes
Like a blooming rose in a barren place
that must absorb the falling rain
I am longing for your warm embrace

On my way through the forest I can hear a soft voice
But inside my heart it feels strong
It tells me to follow so I don't hesitate
It will lead me to where I belong

[Chorus]

^_^

Celebrity look-alike collage from MyHeritage.com.


Lol. Quite fun =P. Darling introduced it to me. Anyway I've no idea why of my many lookalikes only 2 are guys. The rest are female =(!

Anyway, why can't they say I look like Andy Lau?



=P

Changed Blog Song

Decided to use Imeem.com =).

Within Temptation - Jillian

I’ve been dreaming for so long
To find a meaning t understand
The secret of life
Why am I here to try again?

Will I always, will you always
See the truth when it stares you in the face?
Will I ever, will I never free myself
By breaking these chains?

Chorus:
I’d give my heart, I’d give my soul
I’d turn it back, it’s my fault
Your destiny is forlorn
Have to live till it’s undone
I’d give my heart, I’d give my soul
I’d turn it back and then at last I’ll be on my way

I’ve been living for so long
Many seasons have passed me by
I’ve seen kingdoms through ages
Rise and fall, I’ve seen it all

I’ve seen the horror, I’ve seen the wonders
Happening just in front of my eyes
Will I ever, will I never free myself by making it right?

Repeat chorus

Jillian our dream ended so long ago
All our stories and all our glory I held so dear
We won’t be together
For ever and ever, no more tears
I’ll always be here until the end
Jillian, no more tears…
Jillian, no more tears…

Repeat chorus

Comms Ball... & Others...

Just came back from Comms Ball a few hours, nothing much to blog about. Pretty fun events, although I was a lil bored. Nevertheless it was good to see most of my friends with their sweet dates =). Darling Geri came to find me after her stuff, and it made the difference for the day =). Thank you Dear =)!

Also, LTA Joel and 2LT Aloysius proposed today! It was really really nice and romantic! =) Congrats! ^_^

Anyway, I've learnt recently that double dates and catching up with old friends are not as easy as I thought... Sigh.

To add to that, some of Geri's friends haven't exactly been behaving like good friends. WTF is wrong with people nowadays? They only care about themselves, where's the friendship...? It's so sad, really. If you said you don't mind, then why do you still bring it up? Just STFU and move on, stop whining and wallowing in your sorrows. Should I offer you a tissue as well? Or maybe a towel since you're so full of tears? Knowing things like this piss me off.

Maybe one day I should just listen to the anger inside.

Anyway, for my dearest =)...

Lunatica - Song For You

You hold my hand when I tremble with fear
You bring me light when I burst out in tears
And now I want to thank you, dear, for all the things you've done
I can't deny (that) you showed me the right way

[Chorus:]
For the light, for the love
For the truth in your eyes
I am grateful to have such a friend by my side
For the tears, for the joy
For not asking me why
We can hold our hands up and reach for the sky

You kept your faith when my words were untrue
You made me laugh when I was feeling blue
Always giving, never asking for more than a smile upon my face
Together we will conquer the whole world

[Chorus]

(You) don't have to worry
We'll stay together all of our days
You can trust in my words, you can rely on me
And when dark clouds obscure the sky
I'll be at your side
Until the weight on your shoulders fades away

[Chorus]

Thanks to Greg for introducing Lunatica =P.

Reminiscence =P

Was browsing through some old photos and found some that really brought back memories...





















Don't laugh. =P

More Comms Parade Photos!

65/06 OCC Commissioning Parade!

FINALLY! =)

OneRepublic - Apologize

Changed the blog song =)!

OneRepublic - Apologize

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

Bridge (guitar/piano)

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...

Source: http://www.lyricsdir.com

Rant...

It's been a long time since I actually felt like writing what's on my mind, since most of the time my mind's either completely blank (except for a certain part which is always missing someone =P), or way too messed up with thoughts for me to even start trying to write anything at all, since I can't even put many of these thoughts into words, much less phrases, to begin with.

So why am I writing now? I don't know, and my mind's currently full of thoughts, and I'm just spouting out whatever I can before I lose the ability to properly convert my thoughts to words.

OCS, Professional Term has finally ended. Joint Term here I come! I'm really happy that it's over, but at the same time, sad and a little anxious. After Joint Term, what lies ahead? Where will I be posted to? So many questions but no answers. Anyway, I don't really worry, I simply wonder from time to time. More importantly, I want to write about a very important lesson I learnt, and credit goes to my wonderful section instructor, for his effort and understanding. It's truly something that made something in me feel something, and this something is guilt, and I feel like crap honestly.

You know sometimes in life, you'll come across people who you can't along with. Heck, you come across people who cross your paths almost all the time. In my platoon, there's this one guy whom everyone doesn't like, including myself. Why? Because he has no initiative, he's lazy, self-centred, and simply refuses to help. That's my judgement of him anyway. Thus, for the first peer appraisal, most of us rated him very poorly. Yet he didn't change. Naturally, people will get pissed off, and our opinion of him naturally worsened. Thus, for the second peer appraisal, he was rated very poorly again. I think, as a result of that, he got sent to PRB, also known as Performance Review Board. Basically it's something that could result in him getting OOC (Out Of Course). Anyway, my section instructor came and talked to the entire platoon about it. I truly respect him for doing so. He said we should leave the platoon with happy memories, and not memories of who's fucked up and whatnots, that we should all thrash things out.

Then he said some things which really made sense. He asked, "When you all did the peer appraisal, did you all do it with the intention of helping him, or with the intention of bringing him down?" For me, it was a little of both. Yes, I wanted to bring him down, yet at the same time I hoped that he would change. I'm ashamed of myself for even thinking of bringing him down to begin with. My section instructor also asked, "Did any of you bothered to step up to him and tell him his faults?" To which, my answer is no. Yes, many a times I've tried hinting to him, but I've never talked to him directly about it. You see, many a times when we started having an opinion of something, we turn completely blind to his positive points. We make judgements on others as though we ourselves are the epitome of perfection, as though we are all and they are not. No, I'm not saying that the guy's not wrong at all, I'm saying most of the time we're all wrong. Wrong in the way we handle things, wrong in the way we judge people, and more importantly, wrong in the way we look at ourselves. Anyway, to cut the long story short, yes, some people are screwed up beyond hope, but we can only come to such a conclusion after making an effort to correct them. We should not gather as a group to go against someone just for the sake of it.

There you have it. We're all as flawed as the person you dislike. Just flawed in a different way. But still flawed.

On to another topic, I'm really thankful for such a wonderful and sweet girlfriend =). Just had to say that out =P!

Last but not least, I'm going for an interview this coming Tuesday. Please wish me all the best! =)

A Shoulder To Cry On... Knock It Down! =P

Dedicated to all the NSFs =P:

Knock It Down


For Geri ^^:

Tommy Page - A Shoulder To Cry On

Life is full of lots of up and downs,
but the distance feels further,
when it's headed for the ground,
and there's nothing more painful,
than to let your feeling take,
you down.

It's so hard to know,
the way you feel inside,
when there's many thoughts,
and feeling that you hide,
but you might feel better,
if you let me walk with you,
by your side,

And when you need,
A shoulder to cry on,
when you need,
a friend to rely on,
and when the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone,
cause i'll be there,
i'll be your shoulder to cry on,
i'll be there,
i'll be your friend to rely on,
when the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone cause i'll be there,

All of the times,
when everything is wrong,
and you're feeling like,
there's no use going on,
you can't give it up,
i'll help you work it out,
and carry on,

Side by side,
with you till the end,
i'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand,
no matter what there said or done,
our love will always continue on,

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on,
everyone needs a friend to rely on,
when the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone,
cause i'll be there,
i'll be your shoulder to cry on,
i'll be there,
i'll be your friend to rely on,
when the whole world is gone
you won't be alone,
cause i'll be there,
you have my shoulder to cry on,
i'll be there
i'll be the one to rely on,
when the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone,
cause i'll be there,

And when the whole world is gone,
you always have my shoulder to cry on.

Source: http://www.sing365.com

Cool Couple =D

^_^. On another note, NS life hasn't been very good for me recently... =(.