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Alright, the results of the ESC Election is out. Wei Jian will be the new ESC President, while Janice will be the new Vice-President. Myself, I came in 5th position for the most number of votes, so I won't know my position till the meeting with the rest of the new ESC Committee. Anyway, congratulations to everyone who got in, and special thanks to all those that voted for me. Jeremy got in as well! =)

On another note, some people are already playing games. Sigh. It's quite sad, especially when you really thought of them as friends. They try psyching you into taking other positions, so they can have the positions they want, and whatnots. I wouldn't mind taking any position to be honest, provided everyone is actually selfless. However, this isn't a perfect world. People fight for power, not because they know they're capable enough to serve the school, but for their own stupid reasons. It's quite sad to see all these when we, the new committee, have not even officially stepped up. Anyway, other than a select few, I think it would be fun working with everyone!

Recently, I started talking to people that I haven't been talking to for ages (MSN Messenger, SMS). It's fun in a way, but then again, I realise I'm just a form of entertainment to some of them. Well, well. There're the really interesting ones that want to know what you look like before continuing a conversation. It's a sin to be ugly, it seems. This world is just so fucking superficial. If these people could take a look at themselves, they'll probably see they're rotten inside. Anyway, it might seem like I'm whining, but hey, whatever makes you happy.

I'm not trying to sound all angelic and shit, I won't deny I do care about how a girl looks like. But that wouldn't stop me from being friends with anyone, pretty, ugly, or pretty ugly. However, I won't want a friend who's ugly inside, no matter how pretty she is. It spoils my mood completely.

Anyway, was blog-surfing just now to kill some. Saw one of my friend's friend's blog, and it seems that she just broke up. Anyway, it's pretty sad to see someone giving up all hope on love, and shit just because someone broke his/her heart. So yeah... =(. Personally, I always ask myself, "What if it wasn't love to begin with?" Then again, it might be self-consoling, but it gives me hope, so who cares? Of course, I do miss the sweet times, and still dream of her every now and then, and still feel that it was love. Lol... That doesn't mean I can't hope, right? Maybe love is something I haven't experienced yet. Fuck, I'm a self-consoling fool. All I'm *really* trying to say is, have some hope, love does exist. Among friends and family. Surely love between two people has to exist too, right? Otherwise most of us wouldn't be here. If our parents didn't fall in love and made love, you wouldn't even be here. I said MOST, of course there're the minority, but I'm not going to elaborate. Sorry =).

I love listening to sad, depressing love songs when I'm sad. To some, it makes them feel worse. To me, it gives me this sense of enlightenment. No idea why, but it helps me accept things more. So here's a song for all the heartbroken ones out there:

Nine Days - Wanna Be
To watch the leaves grow on the trees with you
Is out of question
I walk into this summer all alone
The usual session
You feel your instinct then you act
But was it your intention?
To leave me down and broken
Now you've ended our ascension

I still can feel the beach sand in my shoes
Remember when?
We talked along the ocean's song
'Til blue from black fade in
But that was then I learned to live
Without you far within
I ask you why you're back to try
To let me lose again

You brought me here
You wet my taste
You disappear
Without a trace
It wasn't me who made the call

'Cause now I wanna be
Where you sleep
Where you laugh
Where you breathe
And I hate to say
Still I swear
Brown your eyes
Gone away

Should I feel some closure
I deserve if that at least
And would you be so kind to show
Reasons for your release
You woke me up from a distant past
I left behind complete
The message that you sent that night
Now falls to bittersweet

Or was it me?
My honesty
You fail to show
I never know
It wasn't me who made the call

'Cause now I wanna be
Where you sleep
Where you laugh
Where you breathe
And I hate to say
Still I swear
Brown your eyes
Gone away

Was it me?
My honesty
You fail to show
I never know
You brought me here
You wet my taste
You disappear
Without a trace
Did you think I'd ever lead you wrong?
Just know I'll save all of our moments
That we are

And still I wanna be
Where you sleep
Where you laugh
Where you breathe
And I hate to say
Still I swear
Brown your eyes
Gone away

Now I wanna be
Someday you'll wish you never
Where you sleep
Someday you'll wish you never
Where you laugh
Someday you'll wish you never
Where you breathe
Someday you'll wish you never
And I hate to say
Someday you'll wish you never
Still I swear
Someday you'll wish you never
Brown your eyes
Someday you'll wish you never
Gone away
Someday you'll wish you never
You took it all the way (and)
You took it all away
Source: http://www.sing365.com/

CHEER UP! Don't attitude LA!

Site Update: Hope you all like the new song. Thanks to Geri for the song! She sent it to me quite some time ago though =P.

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