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On My Chair, Slumped

I just came to the realization today that no matter how happy I may be, there's always some things that will spoil it. Be it something from the past or present, there will be something. It's just that in the moment of happiness, and during my day to day living, I choose to forget about it, or rather, park it somewhere in my brain so that it wouldn't interfere in my daily activities.

I don't have a perfect family, in fact, my family's far from it. However, throughout the years I've learnt to be happy with what I have. I'm happy that I can get along well with both my parents, although they aren't together. I'm happy that both of them seem to have found their own reasons to go on with their own lives, and I'm trying hard every day to work towards success, so I can make them proud. I see my Mum mostly on weekends (book out from camp), and only meet my Dad around once a month, sometimes less. I try to make an effort to call them whenever I can, but sometimes I'm too caught up in my work or personal life to remember, and I always feel like shit when that happens. I have a sister too, and every time I think of her I wish she'd do something about her life soon. Really, I do. Mum worries about her all the time, and 75% of the time Dad talks to me about her. Sadly, I sometimes wonder if she even realizes how much she's hurting them. I'm just thankful she seems much better now when compared to a year ago or so.

You only live once, and so do your parents. Please think.

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